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2011-11-21T18:47:00.005+08:00

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HEARTS ALL OVER BF JEANS by Pearl Milk Teea
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size M (uk8-10)
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CLOSED

2010-12-11T18:00:00.005+08:00

THIS BLOG WILL BE CLOSED UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE.

it has been moved to another site.

blog posts will not be removed because no, i dont regret posting anything.

i have no fear or whatsoever and i do not care about what anyone out there is reading feels.

because this is MY blog, and i write what i like.

if you're not happy or feel uncomfortable with what im writing, then you simply click the 'x' button right there on the top right hand corner.

i live for myself and not for you.

tyvm.

PS. the reason why i've decided to shift is because i want more privacy. so im moving back to my livejournal where i can choose to lock my posts.

Random Thoughts

2010-12-02T15:20:00.000+08:00

What if one day, you wake up to find yourself living in a state of dark?

What if one day, you wake up to find yourself living in silence?

What if one day, you wake up to find yourself living in solitary.

Have you ever thought,

What if you cant see?

What if you cant hear or talk?

What if you wake up finding the spot on your bed beside you empty?

What would you do if you realise that you have only a couple more of days to live?

What would you do if you realise that you have been living life a lie all the while?

What would you do if you realise that you have no family or friends?

What would you do if you realise that you have a dark past you never knew of?

#4: My Sibling

2010-11-29T01:47:00.003+08:00

Dear Jac & Jo,

actually i also have no idea what to say. haha.

i appreciate the times when the 3 of us go out tgt to shop, or go ktv tgt.

i'll always remember the times when we were younger!

when we went overseas.

especially the trip to Australia.

when mum and dad rented a car from some company called Budget somethingsomething.

hahahaha! and i remembered me memorising the telephone number. HAHA!

and how we'll rush into the car to see who reaches first.

and you guys were always talking about the soccer matches which was happening on that time.

hahahaha!

just wna thank you both. for always being there for me.

and for all treats i get from the both of you. hehe.

Love, J

Letter(II)

2010-11-28T20:50:00.002+08:00

To: T

im not expecting you to understand and to take it very well.

and i know you'll still be pissed even after my 'explanation'

you're definitely closer to me. 9 years, that count, doesn't it?

no it wasnt for that particular someone. this i can promise you.

but i didnt want to be a..party pooper?

i dont want us to fall out because of this.

i mean, i know it's not really a minor thing, but i'd rather we fall out because..i dont know? something else? but not because of this.

because i want you to know that it wasn't intentional.

we've fought many times and i hope this will go away really quickly like how it did for the past few times.

i dont want you to talk to me just for the sake of talking to me.

but because you want to.

so, just talk to me when you're ready to.

once again, im sorry.

From: J

Letter

2010-11-28T18:52:00.000+08:00

To: T

well last night i upset my best girlfriend and now im trying to think of ways to solve it.

i know my explanation is gna be weak too, i mean, who am i kidding, it's not gna mean that im not at fault.

but yeah im just gna say out what happened the entire day yesterday.

before i left house yesterday, my mum specifically came into my room and asked me not to go clubbing.

and i even said 'i not going clubbing lah' to her.

so, we, Dawn, Gerald, Keith, Yonghan & i met up for Gerald's birthday at vivo yesterday.

our plan was very simple: Dinner and Movie.

so i was late and we reached there at around 6+ 7, and so we thought we should go book the tickets first.

so we went to GV and wanted to book Easy A for 8+.

but then seats available were only at the 1st row.

so we were like, shit dont want lah.

then someone said to get the next timing one which was 10+.

but i said, eh we go eat first lah. then after that we decide whether we want to watch a not then can buy again.

so okay, we headed off to Fig & Olives for dinner.

and then we were thinking about going clubbing.

because the stupid restaurant(or maybe Vivo) was playing all the stupid clubbing songs.

i freaking swear. one after another.

and we were like 'omgomg it's a sign it's a sign'.

then after dinner we were thinking about where to go and what to do next.

then we walked around Vivo and were thinking about all our options.

at first we were all very hyped about clubbing.

plus because YH's cousin and friends will be going powerhouse on that night.

and he was supposed to join them too because it was his friends's birthday too.

but a part of Dawn and i were a bit reluctant because we didnt want to break our promise to ourselves and me, to my mum.

then i thought, 'hey, pubbing is not considered clubbing.'

so we thought about just going for drinks, because the guys were afraid about the going in part.

and we wouldnt be asked for IC if we went to drink instead.

plus we wont be hanging out till too late.

so we were contemplating about going to Holiday Inn to get drinks and then go sit at the bridge at Zouk/Phuture to drink, or to go to Clarke Quay to get drinks from the 7-11 and drink at the river.

so we decided with the former.

so we took the train from Harbourfront to Clarke Quay.

and when we were already making our way to the bus stop and then..

wait i dont rmb what really happened here.

i think YH received a call from his cousin asking if we wanted to join and that they could get us in.

so we were sitting at the steps and deciding what to do next.

we were kinda reluctant because we were thinking about what if we got bounced out, then what's gna happen next?

and i sort of kinda didnt want to go because i had no idea what to tell my mum and the promise was still there.

and as dawn said, we just had to wait for another 3-4 more days then it'll be december.

but well we didnt. and i ended up saying 'anything loh'

i guess there are so many reasons why i said yes and there are also so many reasons why i should've said no.

so we ended up training back to harbourfront.

and that was when i saw your tweets.

i was like, 'oh shit.'

and i texted you, and yes of course you were mad.

i mean, you have the right to be lah.

the week before you kept asking me if i wna go on fri(26/11).

i was really tempted to but then i wanted to keep my promise.

so i kept declining and eventually didnt go.

and then the next day, i said that im going powerhouse.

if it was me, i would've been hurt too.

but even after knowing that you were pissed i couldnt say 'guys i cant go. im going home.'

i mean tbh, even if you were pissed at me, it's no reason for me to bail out on my friends, right?

they may even end up not going because of me because it would only be down to the 4 of them plus only Dawn is able to get in without worries.

dont get me wrong, im not trying to shift the blame to my friends, im just trying to explain here.

i texted you but then after awhile you tweeted saying 'dk what to say to you'

so i sort of thought that it would be best to let you be.

because i know you need a little while to chill. plus you wouldnt reply me either.

and now, i know you're still pissed. but you're the kind who still wants to know what's going on even if you're angry.

so yeah.

the reason why i didnt want to go on friday was because of my mum.

i knew she would be upset with me because i have already went clubbing the past 2 weeks.

and i had nothing to tell her if she asked why i am going.

yesterday, i told her it was Gerald's birthday, which was true.

yeah, im done explaining here.

and all i can say is im sorry that i hurt you and disappointed you.

i hope you wont be mad anymore.

and hope that you'll be ok after reading this.

even though i know this doesnt fully justify why i went last night.

but..yeah. thanks for reading nonetheless.

From: J

#3: My Parents

2010-11-27T04:42:00.001+08:00

Dear Mum,

I dont like it when you don't trust me.
I trust you by being honest with you; I don't like lying to you.
To be honest, I have almost never lied to you for a long tine already.
I tell you about who I hang out with, where I'm going, what I'm doing etc.
So I need you to trust me too.
I know you do. But it's not enough.
I need you to trust me that I'm sensible enough to do the right things.
I need you to trust me that I know I'm doing.

I don't like it when you say I'm addicted to clubbing because I'm not.
I obviously don't suffer withdrawal symptoms from it.
I just like to go.
Why? Because I like to lose control.
Why? Because I have to be in control when I'm conscious and it's tiring.

I go because I trust my friends who will take care of me.
I go because I can have fun with my friends.
I go because I'm young and I don't want to look back and regret when I'm old.
I go because youth is short-lived and I want to enjoy and spend every moment of it being young.
I go and i know what to expect.

I mean I've grown up; I'm 18 already.
Matured and responsible.
I'm no longer 8, when I would cry if I scrape my knee or when I fail my spelling test.
I'm 18. I face the consequences of the mistakes I make.
I deal with it, I make it through, and I learn from it.

I just want to say, I can't hide under your wings forever.
I will grow mine too and one day flap my wings and fly.
But don't worry. It doesn't mean I'm not going to not behave or rebel.
I'll still stick to my responsibilities and duties which i know is studying.
I'll still be your small little girl who can't go anywhere and even live without you.

But all i want you to do is Trust me.
I'm stronger and smarter already.
Because the world has taught me so.

I love you.

Love, J

Dear Dad,

well to be honest, i have no idea what to say.

Thanks forgiving me a great dad to me when i was little.

I will always remember you bringing me to the children's library opposite our house in Tampines.

And you'll cycle me to San Yi's house for Phonics lessons.

I can still remember the route you took.

Also, you fetching me from school everytime instead of mum because she would be cooking dinner.

I can also remember you always doing science experiments with me.

And you tutoring me for all my subjects.

I know i have to thank you for me doing well when i was young and being not stupid.

But there are those empty memories that i have as a child that i'll never forget.

At a very young age, i lost someone, well you could say, closest and dearest to me.

And it hurts. It hurts very much still. As im typing this, it's no doubt that im tearing.

But i know i just have to get this out one day.

I have been thinking and thinking about it everyday. But i never talk about it.

Not to anyone. Not Jac, not Jo, not Mum. maybe to only my closest friend, but no one else.

Now there's this..barrier(?) between us that i know wont go away.

It's like i cant fully trust anymore.

What i've always wanted to know and ask is why did you even leave in the first place?

I want to know the reason why.

I want to know how can you bear to leave your family and just go?

I want to know what really happened.

These are the questions i will never ask and will never get answers.

But yet i cant help but think of them.

Was it because i've never topped my class? Or was it because i wasn't well-behaved enough?

i mean, yes, we're had more freedom without you around because i remember you used to be very strict with us.

But it doesn't mean that i can do without a father.

I'd always love you and respect you.

But the questions would always remain un-asked and unanswered.

Love, J

Protecting Animals' Rights(P.A.R.)

2010-11-26T03:23:00.001+08:00

okay. our facebook page is up! please do support!

our name: Protecting Animals' Rights(P.A.R.)

it sounds simple right? but here's the catch.

our slogan: As much as we human beings need our rights, animals need theirs too. We're on PAR.

yours truly came up with the slogan and name. :)

please do support okay! i've created a badge for it too.

you can find it on the right sidebar of my blog.

here are the links:

Facebook Profile: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100001889570386

Facebook Page: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Protecting-Animals-RightsPAR/105395869531446

Email: protectinganimalsrights@hotmail.com

please do help us to spread the word around. thank you. :)

your support will be greatly appreciated.

To: T

2010-11-26T01:26:00.000+08:00

T; lets leave it at that says:
WO BU ZHI DAO.
STILL ONZZ MAH
SATURDAY W NA GE SHEN JING BING

Jasmine Quek says:
WHAT TALKING YOU?!?!
GE????
OR GET?
LOL!

T; lets leave it at that says:
GE
LIKE
NA GE
THAT ONE
STEWPID
GALZXZX

Jasmine Quek says:
NO LINK NO SENSE!!
GE SHEN JING BING???

T; lets leave it at that says:
huh

Jasmine Quek says:
MEANS WANT TO BE CRAZY??
LOL

T; lets leave it at that says:
NA GE SHEN JING BING
THAT CRAZY
STUPID
WE COMMUNICATION BREAKDOWN
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Jasmine Quek says:
I THOUGHT YOU TYPED SATURDAY WNA GE SHENG JING BING/

T; lets leave it at that says:
SIGH
INTEPRETATION SKILLZ FAIL
JASMINE QUEK SHU PING COMMUNCATION SKILZZ FAIL
AHAHAHHAH

Jasmine Quek says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
YOU HAVE POOR COMM SKILLS LAHHH!!
STILLL BLAME ME
HAHAHAHAHA

T; lets leave it at that says:
OKAY LA BOTH OUR FAULT HAO BU HAO
I POOR EXPLAINER
YOU POOR UNDERSTAND-DERER

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T; lets leave it at that says:
WANT FIGHT AH
WE MEET AT MAMA SHOP OPP SAC LA
I THROW MAGGIE MEE AT YOU
HAHAHAHAHHAAHA
*FAIL GANGSTER*

a snippet of a msn conver i had with Trish. hahahahahaha.

damn funny lahhh.

AND I JUST REALISED I DIDNT HAVE A BIRTHDAY POST FOR HER?!?!

OMG! OKOK. SO HERE IT IS! EVEN THOUGH IT'S DAMN BLOODY LATE. HAHAHA!

BETTER LATE THAN NEVER, RIGHT?!

so anyway,

HAPPY 18th (belated) BIRTHDAY, TRISH.

hehehehe. you're like FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY 18!

that makes it 8 months of suffering for you from me.

every single moment im like suaning you lah. hahahaha.

aiyah. you probably know what i wna say anyway.

so i shan't say.

but yay! 9 years of friendship and still counting! or is it 10?

aiyah i dont rmb when i transferred to sacps. but yeah. hehehehe.

so anyway! stay awesome and you know i love you! :)))

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

-J

Anti-Animal Abuse

2010-11-23T00:35:00.002+08:00

``editted;;

okay and now im thinking of becoming vegetarian.

i mean, no harm, right?

or maybe to be exact, pescetarian.

because im not gna give up eating fish.

i need the fish to improve my brain. haha.

i dont want people to see me as a hypocrite as all talk and no action.

i mean, i know there's a difference between consuming and abusing.

>but somehow, it makes me feel that i'd be a little more convincing if i didnt eat them too.

okay it's a little..deep i think. oh well nvm. haha.

anyway my dad is also a vegetarian. actually is a vegan loh.

he really doesnt eat meat, eggs, i dont think he drinks milk too.

yeahh. and he said that he has not been sick ever since he turned vegan.

it's because there's a lot of 'toxic' in meat.

so..yeap. and at least i dont have to be afraid of getting mad cow disease, swine flu or H1N1.

hahaha actually im not sure if you can get those diseases from eating beef, pork or chicken.

but yeah. hahaha.

okay lah. shall go sleep now. for real. after i bathe. :)

nights!

i need to rant. i just read a link about the China women killing rabbits..

and as im typing this im crying.

i hate it how they have to vent their frustrations on poor helpless animals.

tmr, cleo and i will be creating a FB page about Anti-Animal Abuse.

im serious about this. tbh, this is the first time i felt honestly serious about something.

this is our plan:

we're gna post links and websites that say feeding stray animals are okay, about more animal aware and everything we can provide and find.

i hope it's really successful and i hope that it can raise more awareness about Anti-Animal Abuse.

even better, i hope it can spread nationwide or even better globally.

i dont know how we're gna do this, but we'll try.

this is the least we can do to try save more animals.

we're starting this tmr.

i'll be bringing my laptop to school tmr.

cause she'll be online and then we can start the page asap.

i really wna do this. i really really wna do this.

please do support okay? thanks.

here's the link if you're curious.

*Warning: there are pictures of the poor rabbits...

http://www.chinahush.com/2010/11/22/uncover-secrets-behind-the-rabbit-killing-girl

i've got this idea too. i hope i can like, try to get to all the famous bloggers and everyone.

then ask them to do this free advertorial for us. i mean it doesnt have to be an ad.

like, just a retweet of my tweet on twitter would be good too or smth.

i know our plan sounds a little impossible and ambitious.

but if we dont try, we'll never know.

what's the harm anyway.

and as i said earlier, this is the least we could do.

yeah okay that's about it.

i shall stop thinking about it and go sleep.

blahblahblah

2010-11-18T19:26:00.004+08:00

``editted;

btw! these are what i submitted for my photography module!

hehehe yeapyeap. will have to go back to school tmr to take pictures!

because there'll be CCN(Campus Care Network) day and for our assignment this week for photography, we'll have to take pictures which shows a vibrant campus blahblahblah.

hahaha. so yupppp. shall meet the gang and fion too!

and she can help me too. hehe.

have spent the past few hours watching Hot Tub Time Machine and Eat, Pray, Love. :)

and im having cramps now and bleeding profusely. hahaha.

this suckssss! :( oh well!

shall go sleep now! goodnight!

hiiiiiiiiiiii. very lazy to blog recently!

have been thinking if i should move back to my livejournal a not! :/ hahaha.

i just cant settle down! and im so fickle-minded. hehe.

anyway! i caught Harry Potter yesterday with my jie fu, sis & mum!

sighsssss. i dont like it! because so sad loh! :( hahaha.

dont worry im not gna spoil anything! nor say anything!

just go watch it for your own! :))

hehe okay! shall go watch my movies now. byebye! :)

I guess I’ll just have to make more effort.

2010-11-12T00:37:00.001+08:00

(i mean no resentment or anything towards anyone in this entire post. it’s just..how i feel..)

to be honest, i feel kinda uncomfortable with everyone working their asses off

especially with everyone working tgt.

i mean, im happy that they all have each others’ company.

but it makes me feel..even more distant.

it’s like, i know lately i havent been hanging out with the gang.

because i’ve been saving up $$.

so i havent been staying back after school to go for lunch.

and, im not blaming anyone. it’s really my own problem this time.

and i feel really bad too. like, i havent been making the effort.

i know that you might say if i really want to make an effort, i can just tag along without eating.

but the thing is..it’s..not..easy.. :/

i mean, like today, i didnt have breakfast. and we had 4hrs lessons straight.

and then i was done for the day.

but i was starving but i didnt want to spend any $$.

so i could only rush home to have lunch.

i know dan was like trying to get me to go eat with them too.

like yesterday, they were planning to go Carls’ Jr.

and i know she wanted me to like, not exclude myself too.

today too. she asked me if i wanted to go for meesua with them too.

i really find it hard to reject. it’s not that i dont want.

but..i really cant.

and me having a different timing+date for my CDS isnt helping at all.

and it’s like..only me.. i mean, calyn has her CDS on other days too.

but most of the time after school, she doesnt really hang out with us much.

like after lecture, she would suddenly disappear.

so lately i feel very..distant..

and i know now like, everyone is gna be working at Kudeta together.

im not feeling bitter, jealous, or even angry at any of them.

but im just feeling uncomfortable because it’s like..i dont want it to be like..i dont really know how to put it in words..

but like, i dont want us to hang out one day and then hear them talk about something or someone from work that everyone knows about.

then i’ll be the one who feels very left out and weird..and maybe even awkward..

also i wont get to spend much time with them already.

i mean, yeah we’ll still see each other in school, go out for lunch tgt.

but it means no more outing as an entire gang already.

like, the last time we wanted to go to Jurong Swimming Pool.

it was like, almost everyone who couldnt make it had to work.

work is always the thing which foils our plan.

and now with everyone working..i really have no idea what’s gna happen now.

i can still remember when yonghan first started working, he was worried that he wont be able to spend much time with all of us because of his work.

but i guess now i am the one who has to worry about not spending time with the rest..

Photography

2010-11-11T18:20:00.001+08:00

okay! picture spam!

i already chosen 2 to be submitted for my Photography module.

for this module, every week we have to submit 3 photos to be graded.

i thought the other water droplets photos are quite cool/cute.

so i’ve decided to upload them here. haha.

okay the next two are the ones i’ve decided to submit

but i think im gna phtotoshop the lighting/colours.

i cant find a 3rd one dieeeee.

is it okay to submit another water droplet photo as a 3rd one? :/

haha okay lah. that’s about it. shall go see if i can get a 3rd one or smth

byebye!

Scrimp and save!

2010-11-10T18:55:00.001+08:00

okay! i have to be really thrifty for these 2 upcoming months!

have to clear my debts plus so many birthdays coming up and christmas!

argh!!! *bangs head on wall*

i've got a tight budget! i've been going to school with only $2 everyday. :(

sian lohhhh. this will go on for another 2-3 more week! :((

at least my debts will be cleared! thank godddd!

okay lah this post very sian. i also now very sian,

nothing to talk about. grr. byebye.

Booooooom!

2010-11-08T11:02:00.002+08:00

``editted;;

alright! tagboard up! im recycling my old tagboard! hehehe.

PS. im taking back my words i said earlier in the day! :/

PPS. it's my beloved Tricia Neo's 18th birthday! but im not wishing her because im not admitting that she's 18. cause it means i have one less thing to suan her about. hahahahahahaha!

hiiiiiiiii. PH this sat and no more clubbing forever, okay?

im gna post this everywhere to remind me that im broke and have no money.

btw, we had to create a blog for on of our modules.

here! check out mine: quekshupingjasmine.blogspot.com

okay time to get ready for school! :)

PS. im getting a tagboard for this bloqqzxzx.

Baked to Perfection

2010-11-07T18:06:00.000+08:00

wheeeeee! hehehehe. very perfecttttt!

but i dont think it’s sweet! because there wasnt enough sugar and i replaced white sugar with raw sugar. D: oh well!

i think it’s gna be still as delicious! hehehe.

anyway! since im posting pictures.. im gna post this picture next!

c’mon! which is nicerrrrr??? drawn by jowell & i during Journalism lecture!! hahahahahaha!

you better guess the one that i drew ah! hahaha!

alright! nothing much for me to talk about! hehe tata!

PS. should i put up my tagboard again? so that jie fu, you dont have to text me every time you wna tell me something. hahaha.

Life, as we know it

2010-11-07T01:11:00.000+08:00

yay i survived. hahaha.

like duh of course i did.

well it wasnt much of an operation actually.

i didnt have to go to the 2nd floor of the clinic.

i just sat there and the doctor squeezed all the pus and blood out.

yeap. pretty much that. but well i think he used a knife to cut it.

my mum said it was a needle. i have no freaking idea what it was and i dont want to know it either!

all i remember hearing was the metal cling when he put it back into the metal bowl!

arghhh! and my teeth and palms hurt cause i was gritting my teeth and clenching my firsts really tightly.

and i kept tearing after that. pus, blood, tears. yeap.

well the nurse was pretty nice as compared to the previous one!

well despite the fact that she’s the one who held my head firmly so i wont squirm, she kept encouraging me and kept reminding me to breathe – in and out.

yeah i swear it was almost as if i was giving birth. hahahahaha!

but im really grateful to her cause she’s really nice!

have to be back to the clinic in 2 weeks’ time for a checkup.

and hopefully it’s better. otherwise he would continue squeezing again. ARGHH!

sucks to be me.

have been thinking about life lately.

one thing i hate about life is that we can only choose one thing at a time and no matter what the outcome is, we cant turn time to choose again.

and we’ll end up spending our entire life regretting.

and we keep thinking what the possible outcomes would be if we made a different choice.

every choice we make is a risk. well, life’s a risk

okay. that’s just me being critical about life. hahaha.

well it’s true to a certain extent, isnt it?

okay! shall go sleep soon! will be going to the market with my mama & aunties tmr morning!

Orh-Per-Ray-Tion

2010-11-06T01:28:00.001+08:00

i dont wna go sleep! cause when i wake up, it means i have to go to the doctor’s to have my eyelids cut open.

and no, it’s not because of plastic surgery for double eyelids!(or thriple in my case)

but because there’s a FREAKING corn in my eye.

yes first i had corneal ulcer, then i had styes. and now i have a corn.

DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ABOUT MY PREVIOUS VISIT LAST WEEK!

arghhhh! anyway, i was supposed to have the op last week. but there wasnt time.

so we scheduled it for tmr. at first we wanted to change to thursday so i would have more time to rest but the clinic wasnt opened.

so it meant that i had to be kept in suspense for a longer time.

but i have no idea if that’s good or bad. arghh.

im really really freaked out by the thought of it!

i know the operation for stye is like this:

The stye will be held by two metal plates.
The doctor will use a knife to cut the stye open.
A spoon will be used to ‘scoop’ the pus out.
And, Voila! That’s how you remove a stye.

Interesting? NOT!

Disgusting? VERY!

i have no idea no idea no idea how im gna live through it.

seriously! my pain threshold is really really really very low!

that explains why i only have a single ear hole on each ear and no other body piercings or tattoos!

dont come and tell me that it doesnt hurt.

IT FREAKING HURTS OKAY!!

i had my 2nd ear hole pierced when i was sec 1/2(yes, my ah lian period) and then it had infection and all the pus and blood.

i got so traumatised that i swore never to pierce again. hahahaha.

and so my mum dont have to worry about me coming home with a tattoo one day.

because it would hurt like freaking hell and i probably think i would faint halfway through the inking. :/

so anyway! yessss. ahhhhhhh veryvery afraid!

last week he already squeezed some pus out of my eyelids and i was already thinking ‘FMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFML’ and i was on the very verge of crying.

yay i’ve grown so strong!

the last time i cried like mad please!

i think tmr will be like the last time!

well anyway! thanks to those people who wished me luck & asked me to take care okayyyyy! <3 love you guys!

especially my xiao mei’r jowell! hehehe.

she even bought me something to give me as a good luck charm.

we were supposed to go out today to go do our journalism project.

but then joanne was sick. so we postponed it to monday.

since i wont be free tmr and i have to rest on sunday.

so she took a picture of the thing she bought for me!

it’s Hello Kitty! hehehe.

here!:

hehehe so cute+sweet right!

veryvery thoughtful! i was very touched!

love her!

*hehehe picture of us. okay lah. we look alike. hahaha!

hmmmmmm nothing much to talk about already i guess.

have to be up at 10am tmr. the clinic is ALLLLLLL the way at AMK.

and confirm must wait damn long again for my turn even though i already have an appointment!

shall fully charge my itouch for my mum to play the Scoops game again. hahaha!

and i shall bring a book!

anyway! currently very hooked onto this song!

she’s a Singaporean! and she wrote the song! both tune & lyrics!

hehehe. go hear!

love x9876543210 the lyrics!

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定
放弃你忘记你只怕我无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

Chorus:

明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理幸福在手里
我恨自己无能为力

明知道我爱你却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意反而痛了自己
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定
但为何到如今我依然无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

(Chorus)

明知道我爱你假装不在意
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道真的没关系

i know the size of the lyrics damn small.

but if i make it bigger it would be really huge! and ugly! :/

so if you wna read the lyrics, just click on the video and you’ll be directed to the actual youtube video.

there’s lyrics at the description!

okay! that’s all! goodnight!

ticktockticktock

2010-11-04T21:07:00.000+08:00

this is the first time im trying this new programme to blog.

it’s called Windows Live Writer.

i have no idea how this post will turn out.

sooooo this is just a ‘testingtesting’ post!

bold underline italics ~~strikethrough~~ highlight hyperlink

okay byebye. hahahaha.

Awesome Possum

2010-11-01T17:37:00.000+08:00

woahhh i havent blogged for a long time! hehehe.

well! school has started already! this is the 2nd week already in fact.

first week of school was sucky.

too slack! i hated it.

i only had to go for school for like 2 hours!

it made me feel even lazier to go to school!

blahblahblah. nothing much.

oh wait! the weekends were great!

oh and did i mention my awesome timetable??

well, let me talk about it first! :))

Monday
9-11am: Media Management Principle(this is an online module so i can do it from home)
1-3pm: Persuasive Communication Lecture

Tuesday
2-5pm: Photography Tutorial
6-7pm: Calculus Lecture

Wednesday
9-11am: Calculus Tutorial
12-2pm: Journalism 2 Tutorial
2-4pm: Journalism 2 Lecture

Thursday
9-11am: Persuasive Communication Tutorial
11-1pm: Photography Lecture

Friday
No school

:) awesome or what? hehehe.

so glad that i got the CDS of my choice: Calculus! :))

really excited! i havent touched math for a year already!! hehehe.

i hope it aint rusty! cause i'll have to put a lot of oil then(pun intended)

so well! back to my awesome weekend!

Friday was greatttttttttttttt!

Halloween was spent with the bunch at Sentosa's Spooktacular!

freeeeeaky mannnn!!!

then spent Saturday celebrating Halloween too!

on both days, besides Halloween, we were also celebrating Mandy's bday!

anyway! we went Zouk on Saturday.

managed to get in cause Heidi's friend's uncle got us in.

hahaha. anyway! i was dressed as a devil, Heidi a witch, Mandy in a white dress who was bleeding.

and since Dawn didnt get any costume, she got to be all glam while we were in our costumes!

well Saturday was crazyyyyy! im not kidding! hahaha.

yeappppp but i guess that's about it!

hmm nothing much!

shall post some pictures which i grabbed from FB now! :))

too lazy to write any captions except for 1!

FRIDAY

introducing the bunch! :))

gerald ~ me ~ keith ~ jowell ~ yonghan ~ erm, ghost?? ~ mandy ~ heidi
4 others couldnt make it! :(

SATURDAY

Little Miss Angsty

2010-10-22T00:14:00.000+08:00

im feeling really, really angsty right now.

so this post is gna be damn complainy and whiny and bitchy and everything. so yeah.

just skipped this if you dont feel like the mood for my nonsense.

i honestly feel like cancelling tmr's outing.

seriouslyyyy! everyone's like not free!

and it's gna just end up as the few of us going again.

which is really pointless to me because it would mean a whole different thing.

i mean it was supposed to 'bond' us tgt and because almost everyone has been working and so busy during the hols. so i thought it would be good for this outing.

but like, not everyone's free. like majority has already something on.

and it feels like im the only one who's really hyped about it.

and it feels really disappointing and.. i dont know. discouraging too?

i think im gna like stop writing the notes and all already.

to be honest, i dont mind staying at home tmr because it means that i get to sleep in and watch my shows all day long.

really dont feel like going out tmr anymore.

i hope this is just me being all frustrated and annoyed because the lack of sleep is finally getting to me.

yes, i havent slept for the past 33 hours because i can officially declare that im insomniac.

and also because i want to adjust my body clock back.

oh well. veryveryvery sian right now.

too sian to even blog about my awesome day today(no sarcasm intended).

shall save it for another day or smth.

i guess i shall ask those who havent confirmed yet individually and see how many can actually turn up.

if like less than 6 are going, i guess it's off.

okay. shall finish what i have to do and then go to sleep. tata.

FCKH8

2010-10-21T04:30:00.010+08:00

Oh well, Life Goes On..

2010-10-20T04:34:00.003+08:00

results for the ktv thingy is outttt.

sucksss. none of us got in! :(

this was the reason why i didnt even want to join in the first place.

i hate to pin my hopes on something and then have it crushed in the end.

the phrase 'as long as you do your best' does not apply to me.

i would rather not do my best and then fail.

because at least i know that it's not because im not good enough.

but because i dont want to do my ultimate best.

and then i will know that, all i have to do is rectify my mistake and try again.

then will i finally succeed.

but when i've done my best and failed.

im confused. and..indignant.

i dont feel that i've done anything wrong. or deserve to fail. why didnt i succeed?

and i guess what's worse for me in this competition is that, i have absolutely no idea where i went wrong.

the judges said i was good. well, at least they implied.

they asked if i joined any music school. or competitions.

said it was nice. and even said i sounded like the original singer.

but what i want to know is, where did i go wrong?

otherwise how am i supposed to improved and do better?

arghh this sucks.

and i always end up brushing my luck to the people before and after me.

every competition also like that.

everyone else just before and after me manage to get in.

like, for example i was 1060. so 1059, 1061, 1062, 1063 all got in.

*sighs* oh well. just feeling disappointed. well maybe not just. but yeah.

and just needed a place to rant.

i hate how everytime the same things happen, they have such a great impact on me.

alright. i guess im done with my self-pitying.

PS. oh btw, i didnt get in for the YT one too. *shrugs*

Photos Spam

2010-10-15T05:41:00.001+08:00

SUNDAY 9th October 2010:

*the cold dish!

*sharks' fin which i skipped!

*this i skipped too!

*so you could have guessed that by the time they served this, i was STARVING!

so i took ate a lot of fish. hehe. but damn spicy i almost died!!!

*sweet & sour & spicy chicken which was damn awesome!!! lovelovelove!

*2 courses served together! ee fu mian & rendang!

i dont know what meat it is! i think it was lamb!

i dont eat lamb but i was starving! so no choiceeee!!

*dessert: honey dew sago!

*mwarks

*kiss ended with a cheeky smile

*durian cake!! with a tray of chocolate pastries(left) & durian pastries(right)

*me, shaunshaun

*super cute picture of shaun!

he looks like he's thinking about something! hahaha!

i can imagine the thought bubble appearing!

*cute shaunshaun. hahaha. super innocent look!

*wisely imitating Michael Jackson

*san yi & wisely

*dylan, wisely's friends & wisely

*happy family - uncle isham, xiao yi, wisely

*the yellow family(hahaha) - ah ku, dylan, ah kim, davier

*sab, jojo, me

si yi(sab's mama), da yi

*sab, jojo, me, jacjac

*quan jia fu~ okay lah not really.

because I WAS THE ONE WHO TOOK THIS PICTURE!

hahahaha!

*wheeeee~ happy family!

but now jojo & cai not in the pic. LOL.

MONDAY 11th October 2010:

*fion setting up the cake!

*ah ma's bday cake

*powder! hahahaha!

*me, sab, sylvia, fion & ah ma

*birthday girl~~

*this is before she executed her revenge plan. hahaha!

*this was what the powder was for. hahahaha!

TUESDAY 12th October 2010:

*fat pretzels!

*cheese pretzel!

*cinnamon pretzels!

*chocolate pretzels!

*cheese pretzel balls!

Longlonglong Update!

2010-10-15T05:06:00.000+08:00

hiiiiiiiii. long time since i blogged hor? hahaha.

anyway! this entire week+last week's like super eventful.

have been going out every single day!

so anyway! where did i stop? hmmm.. okay!

soooo last saturday(9/10/10)!

went to work! my job was REALLY REALLY SIMPLE!

the slackest & highest pay out of all the work i have ever done in my life.

hahaha! i just had to sit down, well, i had to carry 4 cartons from 1st flr to 2nd flr before that lah.

and then mark attendance and hand out the drinks. that's all!

35bucks for 3 hours! it was for the event Lose to Win.

and NO i wont appear on tv okay. hahaha.

cause i think it's an event happening at many places at the same time.

and they wont go tampines to film. so yup! hahaha.

after that jie fu, jacjac, shaunshaun, jo & cai came to pick me up to go for wisely's birthday dinner! :))

oh anyway! i was working at Tampines West CC.

it's the CC near TP! hahaha. i didnt know how to go there lohhhh!

scary ttm!! anyway!

wisely's birthday was a 9 course(?) dinner. siao loh!

he 8 years old nia then the birthday celebrate until like that. tmd.

my 18th birthday also dont have horrr!!! hahaha!

but his free lah! long storyyyyy. blahblahblah!

anyway! pictures in another post! way too many pictures to post already! hehehe.

anyway! sunday! worked at airport T3 L1 slide event!

but before that i had to chiong to Tamp Mall to buy black polo tee!

so ma fan! but luckily my mama brought me to buy and then sent me to airport!

so i was early and had time to go NTUC to stock up some supplies to accompany me throughout the 'war' HAHA!

saw xiang yun and her family! hahaha.

met a lot of nice and friendly people on that day too!

got annoying kids also lah. i hate those kind of want to slide dont want to slide.

still keep taking pictures. got one even better.

sit there then look around. i feel like pushing him down the slide :X

hahahaha! seriously!! the queue was NEVER ENDINGGGG.

but nevertheless, i like that job! cause very slack. hehehe!

10hours straight i also dont mind :))

plus the auntie at the toilet very nice also. haha.

anyway! T went to find me after her morning shift at the other event at transit.

so nice horrrr. hahaha.

yeapyeap. nothing much already! :))

and monday! actually Betty asked if i could work on monday loh!

but already had plans! was supposed to meet Dawn, Gerald & YH at 2pm.

but i woke up late... :/ so i only got there at 3pm. haha!

it kinda started off wrong. esp with the stupid ebi rice burger thingy! haha.

honestly, it kinda spoilt my mood. but it was alright after thattttt! :))

oh yeah. we went Teo Heng for ktvvvv. mad cheap. 8bucks for 5 hours for 4 of us! :))

then after that Keith & Jowell came to join us for dinner!

we went PP for dinner. i didnt eat actually. cause i had Janice Chew's chalet after that!

well anyway! after dinner we walked around PP and Jowell & I got pretzel eachhhhh!

hehehehe!!! that made me a very very happy girl okay!

then we walked around and went home! :))

well, for me i headed to Coasta Sands Downtown East!

was supposed to buy hotdogs & drinks but then, CHEERS was closed?!?!

haha. and i got in freeeee. cause i had no $1 coin and the machines were out of coins.

so yup. bagus ah ma kept a plate of food for meeee! and she kept giving me hotdogs please!

i ate like 4-5 hotdogs loh!! and a lot of sambal beehoon!

spicy like siao. hahaha.

then we drank+played games.

then Sab & Sylvia went to my house to take the birthday cake.

and they went to buy 2 bottles of baby powder. hahaha!

after that we played some games and Indian Poker.

but the stupid people from Coasta Sands kept coming to us and complaining.

SUPER ANNOYING PLEASE!!

after that ah ma & i went to play games with her poly classmates along with ah ma's sis & friend.

i made new friendsssss. haha!

we played wolf, monopoly deal, charades and a lot of games we made up! hahahaha!

then at around 6+ everyone wanted to go sleep and Sab & Sylvia had to leave.

so i left with them! :) yup! that's about it.

oh and i woke up at 5+ the next day. hahahaha!

oh wait. i didnt go out on tuesday! well technically i didnt! haha.

spent the rest of the day baking pretzels! hehe! pictures up soon too!

wednesday! date with the Lianz!

we went to eat BBQ Chicken. as usual i was lateeeee. :/

brought some pretzels for them too.

then after eating we went to Starbucks to play monopoly deal. haha!

and i won one roundddd! hehehehe.

and Nat won too! HER WIN WAS SUPER EPIC, I SWEAR!!

she used 2 Deal Breaker and 1 Wild Card(the old man one)

wlao super epic right?! hahaha!

at first i could have won one loh! but stupid T had 2 Just Say No cards :(

hahaha! then after that we went grocery shopping! :))

thursday! ehh which is today!

i went to collect my pay with Trish & Sarah at airport T3!

we were supposed to go from 4-5pm.

but as usual! they kept pushing back. so eventually only got my pay at like 4.40?!

so we played 2 rounds of monopoly deal.

anyway! so qiao YH had to go airport T3 at 4pm to pick his friend up!

so he passed by departure hall to say hi to me. hahaha!

anyway! after that we went to CHEERS!

i had to stock up my candy jar! hehehehe.

then we headed to Simei 18 Chefs!

played a round of monopoly deal again. LOL.

i swear it's the funnest game loh! hahahaha!

i love the gameeee! im officially hooked on it! hehehe!

sarah had to leave because she wasnt having dinner with us!

so T & my original plan was to go Starbucks and play MD or talktalk and stuff.

but she had to dabao dinner for her mum & sis!

so we went to her house instead!

then we played 2 rounds of MD and started watching videos of SHINee.

hahahaha! talk about kpop crazyness!

left her house at 9+!

walked over to SAC bus stop to wait for 17!

gosh it feels so differenttttt!

just 2 years ago, i was a student behind those gates.

and now, im just another stranger waiting for the bus. :(

i really miss that place like crazyyyyyyy!

and all the peopleeeeee! :((((

oh well! okay lah! wont be going out tmr! :))))

yayyy! finally a day to myself!

jolene quek asked me to go swimming tmr. but my mense came! hahaha!

so maybe tmr she go swim and then i'll.. i dont know. go down and accompany her or smth! :)

anyway! sat 16/10/10 is coming... :/

and i guess im choosing the song: Hui Hu Xi De Tong by Liang Jing Ru.

i posted the part which im singing for the audition on FB!

but it's private and i only set it to friends.

sooooo yup! hehehe.

and anyway, since this blog has been dead for a few days, i assume no one's gna read this!

probably except my jie fu & jacjac!

and i know jacjac has been very supportive of me for these kind of stuff!

so jie, im gna be nice and put the link of the video here! hehehe!

[Click me!]

hehe okay yupyup! that's all for now!

i dont even know who is gna read this entire post!

so damn bloody long! and no colours!

makes it so boring right now. even i dont wna read my own post. HAHAHA!

okok! pictures up next! :))

#2: My Crush

2010-10-09T02:39:00.002+08:00

Dear Mr Crush(for those of you who know, insert name here),

im still deciding if i like you or not.

well, a month ago i decided yes, i did.

but recently, i've decided to stop this *circles hand in the air* thing.

i mean, why should i hold on to this feeling when i dont think or feel that it's reciprocated.

at the end of the day, im the one who's gna feel the pain and get hurt. not you.

im done creating excuses for you and im done with it. done.

and if you do feel something, i mean, you would've already done something about it, right?

so i guess, this is it.

but this doesnt mean that im not feeling sad.

i mean, i thought this would've ended up as something different.

i thought it would've ended up as, well, at least something.

but no, it didnt.

so i have to accept it and there. we're just back to friends.

back to normal friends.

and i guess since i've said this, i've got to be strong and brave enough to complete the task.

the task of forgetting you.

and well honestly, i havent thought of you much when im too engrossed in something.

like playing Sims 3 or like wednesday when i went shopping.

im glad. because, it means that im not crazy over you or what.

yeah i guess that's about it.

maybe there's still much more i wna say, but this is it for now.

dont even know if you're reading this or not. but i've said my piece. :)

Love, J

For all we know, Life's a joke

2010-10-09T02:08:00.003+08:00

hiiiiiii. yayyy since jolene queky has posted the pictures, i can blog!

went shopping with my sisters on wednesday! :))

on mon, jo asked me if i wanted to go bugis on wed. so jac took half day leave!

we had Swensens for lunch!

there was the 2 for 1 deal. really cheap as compared to normal!

we had 3 main dishes and 1 side. it came up to 32bucks!

OH OH AND THIS PART!! MUST BLOG ONE!! HAHAHA.

okay lah. jacqueline queky is gna scold me for announcing it.

but..WHO CARES! HAHAHA!

so this was what happened:

jo: eh do you know there's Koi in Bugis!
jac: huh?? Koi??
jo: ya lah! Koi!
jac: Koi?? as in the fish? the Koi fish?
*jo & i looked at each other and we burst out laughing*
jo: your company never order one meh!
jac: huh! order?! order the Koi fish?!
*jo & i laughed again*
jac: what's that! okok! i google now!

hahahahahaha! damn funny i swear!

anyway! after lunch, i went to get bbt and we went shopping at bugis village!

gosh i was damn brokeee!

well, not at the beginning though!

i had $80 with me. and then i was down to $26.

and i realised i havent bought any shoes or bags!

so i had to dig into my bank for $$! :(

oh well! at least im really satisfied with my bargains!

bought 10 items - 2 necklaces, 2 belts, 1 bag, 1 dress, 1 pants, 2 tops, 1 shoe

hehehe. and i spent $102 altogether.

it sounds like a lot. but on average, it's only $10.20 each!

which is a really great bargain, okay!

and im still thinking of this really pretty green dress that i saw.

it was really sweet and niceeeee. $15!

but at that time i was brokeeee. :( oh well oh well!

met juliana who was working there!

and saw many other friends like peiyin, sharon chew and priscilla. :))

oh and met my darling poly classmates on thurs!

we met at around 2pm.

well, we were supposed to meet at 1.30 actually. but as usual....hahahaha!

then we had macs for lunch! and i saw sharon chew again! haha!

we talkedddd and only left macs at 3+pm and headed for yh's house.

it was kinda sad! because many people couldnt make it :(

so we were down to like 5 people - gerald, yh, dawn, heidi, me

but we still had a great time! we played Rockband and Sonic the Hedgehog for like 3-4 hours.

then we all got bored. so i helped gerald with the installation of Sims 3 and we played the racing game and the rest watched Vampire Diaries.

then we lepak* and headed to 85 market for dinner!

we all had bar chor mee. and were confused if it was the stall on the right or the left.

hahaha! well but in the end we got the right one.(pun intended)

then talked for a little while and went off!

i was super scared we would miss the last train.

because im definitely too broke to cab home! :(

well anyway, we did catch the train.

and when heidi & i got off at pasir ris mrt, they announced that there would be no more train service.

wahhh thank god. we didnt even know we caught the last train. haha!

and today! went out with the Lianz!

actually not really! we were supposed to go Night Safari.

but we couldnt get the tickets at half priced as previously planned.

and so we cancelled! actually T suggested that we just pay $40 and go as planned.

but i dont wna pay $40 to get scared the shit out of me and..not worth it lah! :(

so we changed to movie marathon at sarah's!

we watched 4 movies - Confessions of a Shopoholic, New Moon, Prince of Persia, Wild Child

we ordered pizza for dinner and bought ice cream for dessert!

sarah's dad treated us to dinner! so niceeeee!

and he damn funny. he shook hands with all of us and introduced himself. hahaha!

had a manicure session too! love my pretty nail colour now!!

more like COLOURS though. lol!

it's very rainbowish! :)))

well anyway! im working tmr and sun and next sun!

yayyyy! money, money, come to me! money, money, i love thee!

woah i cant believe i just came up with a cheer! hahaha!

so proud of myself! :))

will be working at tamp cc tmr at 4-7pm and tiong bahru cc next sun at 4-7pm.

it's for some Lose to Win event thingy. haha.

was supposed to go to wisely's birthday party thingy tmr.

but then got this job lobang and it's really easy+earn quite a lot.

so maybe i shall go for his birthday thingy late.

and i havent bought his present yet...*inserts guilty face here*

shall buy it before heading to work tmr! :))

and this sun, i'll be working at airport T3 again! :))

im working at the slide! so..is anyone going to airport this sunday?? hehehe.

come visit me okay!

but too bad i wont be in charged of the the tokens thingy anymore!

if not can let you guys take the slide for free if im working at the level 2 one! :))

alright! shall either go sleep now or...i dont know.*shrugs*

PS. since it's the National Breast Cancer Awareness Month, i've changed my blogskin to PINK to support the cause! :) i know that it clashes. but dont complain, okay? :)

*ATTN: pronounced as LER-PAK. even though im STILL insisting that it's LEH-PAK!!

oh shit. or is it the other way now? dang! i dont rmb which is it now! :(

now both sound equally comfortable!! :/

oh wait. dawn just told me i pronounced it as LEH-PAK. hahahaha!

browsing through the menu while we waited for 10mins to be seated -.-

me & jacjac & jojo

jacqueline queky & jolene queky

me & my sambal grilled fish!

jojo & her meatball+spaghetti bolognese!

jacjac & her fish+chips!

cheesesticks!

ju & i

the new drink stall at bugis village!

jojo & my shopping loot! 17 items in all!

and this is just mine!

Pancake Overload

2010-10-05T00:13:00.002+08:00

*i love the yummy smell of the batter: MILK & EGG

*failed pancake. but HEY! it's the 1st one okay! :)

must make concessions. hehehe.

*ALMOST perfect. :/

*PERFECT! love the colour & the shape!

*stack of 5!

*BEST TOPPING EVER: BUTTER(or margarine) + HONEY

*blurry picture. but i still INSIST on posting this!

*yumyum!

*and if you have an exceptional sweet tooth like Yours Truly, the best combination is:

BUTTER(or margarine) + HONEY + JAM

yes! i just had to torture you guys with yummy pictures of pancakes!

and yes, i made them! FROM SCRATCH!

hahaha. i think the best part about pancakes is the process of making it! hehe.

very fun! i love the smell of milk & egg!

The pancake was really thick and came out well.

Very fluffy but yet doesnt have the flour-y taste.

okay in comparison with Macs', i think this recipe is nicer :/

what i dont like about Macs' is that after awhile, you get sick of your pancakes.

and it's too filling. i think the problem was probably with the flour-y taste and the thick batter.

breakfast is supposed to be light and fills your stomach just right.

but that's not exactly how i got from the Macs' hotcakes. :/

haha yupp!

and i shall be nice and share the recipe with you guys okay? :))

it's REALLY REALLY simple!(that's why i will use it in the first place. LOL.)

here it is:

Pancakes I

Ingredients

1 cup all-purpose flour
1 tablespoon white sugar
1 teaspoon baking powder
1/2 teaspoon baking soda
1/4 teaspoon salt
1 cup milk
1 egg
2 tablespoons vegetable oil

Directions

Preheat a lightly oiled griddle over medium-high heat.
Combine flour, sugar, baking powder, baking soda and salt. Make a well in the center. In a separate bowl, beat together egg, milk and oil. Pour milk mixture into flour mixture. Beat until smooth.
Pour or scoop the batter onto the hot griddle, using approximately 1/4 cup for each pancake. Brown on both sides and serve hot.

i had a hard time finding this recipe okay!

so i think i deserve a little credit too! that's why i copied & pasted the recipe here.

hehehe. but i also provided the link! just click the title which is "Pancakes I"

and you're very much welcome! :))

i prefer original pancakes so i didnt add chocolate chips.

okay lah. half the reason why i didnt was because i forgot until i poured the last bit of the batter into the pan. LOL.

oh and one of the modifications i made was to add Vanilla Essence.

again, because i like sweet stuff. hehe.

and it really enhanced the taste. it made it more fragrant and a little sweeter. but, just a little! :)

yupyup! shall go leave a comment at the recipe now! hehehe.

and post my pictures there! :)

oh and the best part to this batter, you can make extra, keep it in a container and store it in the fridge.

and whenever you're craving for pancakes, you just have to take out the batter and fry yourself some! :))

#1: My Best Friend

2010-10-04T21:14:00.001+08:00

well, i guess after last year. i now have 2 best friends - Tricia & Cleo

Dear T,

i love youuuuuuuuu! :)) we've been friends since i transferred over to SACPS!

which is..Primary 3 eoy! that makes us friends for 9 years(and still counting) already! :))

i remembered we used to be really closed in primary 3&4.

and then we started drifting apart when we were in different classes and we had our new group of friends and i changed CCA.

and sec 1/2 we were practically not talking anymore.

and sec 3! we ended up in 3/7! and so qiao we ended up sitting next to each other!

and in the end, the 7 of us - You, me, ran, sarah f, nat, lum, cleo - became Lianz!

at the beginning was..awkward. hahaha.

because even though we had been in the same CCA since sec 1, we werent really talking.

well but that awkward moment passed really quickly and we bonded again and became BFFs!

we were always there for each other.

i was always there to annoy you and cheer you up.

and you were there to listen to my rantings and helped me out.

i think we are the best partner in crime. hahaha.

you're the kind of friend i know wouldnt get mad at me even if i did something wrong.

you would get mad lah, but after awhile things will be okay! :))

what i missed most in my sec sch days are the days when i annoy the shit out of you.

by planting blu tack on your chair. HAHAHAHAHA!!

creating songs and annoying you like JUNGAR BELLS and the 12 DAYS OF CHRISTMAS.

and causing depressions in your tummy.

and you drawing spiders on post its and sticking it on my book!

and us bitching about Mrs Lopez and her Settlements Skirts

and getting into trouble for our hair with Mdm Chan.

hahaha. i really really miss those times!

and the time when i was president for CO??

you really put up with my crap and helped me out a lot. like really, A LOT!

up till now, even though we dont meet as often as we wish, we're still really really close!

we still tell each other our problems and comfort each other.

we even complete each others' sentences.

it's like, you dont even have to tell me what you're upset about, and i know.

i really dont know what to do without you!

you better cry reading this, y'know? hehehe. i love you!

and take care okayyy!

dont let people bully you and take advantage of your generosity!!

YOU KNOW WHO IM TALKING ABOUT. the person you got mad at. hahaha!

you know i'll always be here for you, just like you'll always be there for me!

PS. i still remember, you have my green pouch. HAHAHAHAHA!

Love, J

Dear Cleo Rachel Yeo,

CRY!! what really surprised me was that i managed to be best friends with you for just a few months!

i mean, we were friends for 9 years! but we were never exceptionally close!

like in sec 3&4, even though we were in the same clique, we didnt stick tgt!

instead, i was with T or R, and you were with Sam Lum!

until last year when you, me, sarah leong, alina & angelyn got admitted into TPJC.

and the both of us were in the same class.

that was when we got really close!

we were inseperable. even Jun Kai thought we were lesbians(?!?!)

hahaha. we always stood up for each other.

even when we were sick, we were very afraid that each other would be lonely in school.

and will mass message the rest of the guys to take care of each other.

we were really lameeeee! we had our Hot Dog Tuesdays tgt.

just the both of us. so we could catch up and have our girl-girl HTHT.

and we didnt know that actually, we had so much in common and we had many similar thinkings!

and i really really have to apologise to you for flaring up at you so often. :/

hahaha. im like really bad tempered and i always scolded you and shouted at you.

but you never got mad. not once.

we read each other's minds and what i really love about you is that you're really sensitive.

you thought about others before yourself. and you're also damn random, please!!

because you like to think of something and then suddenly blurt out stuff.

like you would say, "eh he very bad" or some sort.

and you expect me to understand who the hell you're talking about!! HAHA!

and you're always making me sing songs with you. hahaha.

and i still rmb that time we were sitting at the benches!

you were resting your head on the table and you were singing some song.

and you suddenly waved. HAHAHAHAHA!

i shall not embarrass you further by explaining what you were doing. LOL.

but you were definitely NOT waving to someone. HAHAHAHA!!!

also, the National Day Celebration 2009?

you freaking made me sing with you Home on stage infront of the entire J1 cohort. TYVM HUH!

but one thing which was our problem was that, the both of us are really stubborn.

hahahaha! but it doesnt matter! it didnt make us less-close!

i had so many more memories with you! too many to mention! :))

please please take good care of yourself and cheer up okay!

i know ever since i retained & left TPJC, you became quieter and isolated yourself.

but things have improved and at least you have Wing Yi now! :)))

please learn how to protect yourself and do what i cant do anymore!

i love you, PokPokKeh!

Love, Your LaoPokPok.

♥Be Strong

2010-10-04T20:41:00.003+08:00

i received this msg from Alina yesterday!

apparently Sarah Leong wrote this entire message! :))

super sweet!! i received it in 2 broken messages.

so im just going to post it here for you guys! :)

okok so here it is:

You used to be an awesome person. Just knowing you was a privilege.
But somewhere along the line, you changed, you stopped being you.
You let people stick a finger in your face and tell you you're no good.
And when things got hard, you start looking for something to blame, like a big shadow.
Let me tell you something you already know.
The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows.
It is a very mean and nasty place and i don't care how tough you are.
It will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it.
You know, nobody is going to hit you as hard as life!
But it ain't about how hard you get hit.
It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward!
How much you can take and keep moving forward!
That's how winning is done!
Now if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth.
But you're gonna be willing to take the hits!
And not point fingers saying you ain't where you wanna be because of him or her or anybody!
Cowards do that and that ain't you!
You're better than that!
I'm always going to love you no matter what happens.
But you gotta start believing in yourself.

sweet right?! hehehe.

i think it's very very sweet! :)))

esp for people who are down and need some encouragement! :)

anyway! played Guess The Sketch with Christopher just now!

hahaha damn funny!

i took screenshot of 2 rounds!

here!

*i drew this! i had to draw a moat.

and i think i did a pretty neat job of it! hehe.

but Chris didnt managed to guess. -.- LOL.

*Chris drew this.

and i was like. BREAST. NIPPLES.

the answer is operation.

wth?!?!

haha. hmm nothing much!

anyway! gna go bugis with jolene queky this wednesday to do some shoppingggg!

but im broke..i guess im gna dig into my bank acct first before my pay comes!

then thursday i'll be going CDC to book my FTT! :))

i hope there are slots on weekends! :/

and im going to Night Safari with my Lianz on friday!

ahhhhs. i havent met them for a long long timeeee!

miss them like crazyyyy! :)) haha.

and at first i wanted to blog about the death of Mrs LKY thingy.

like, how it got me thinking and all.

but..oh well. no more "feel" already.

so..forget it!

im thinking of doing the 30 letters thingy! hehehe.

here it is:

WRITE A LETTER TO THESE PEOPLE :
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

so i guess i shall start with Day 1: Your Best Friend
but im gna write it in another new post! hehehe.
if not this will be damn long!!

I Listen, But I Dont Absorb What You're Saying

2010-10-03T03:41:00.002+08:00

hiiiiiii. havent blogged since wednesday!

nothing much to blog also actually.

have been home the whole time and not spending any $$!

which reminds me that my pay aint here yet! :((((((

wlaooooo! very long le leh!

but i also bu hao yi si to keep bugging Calyn for it.

cause the job is her boyf intro one.

and the company will be paying us through him.

but the thing is, i really really need $$!

i still owe Heidi $17 for clubbing+another time earlier.

(yes, im that broke! i cant even afford $17!)

and the pay is $180!!

once it comes in, im gna pay Heidi and go shopping with jolene quek!

and i feel like treating mama quek to lunch or smth lehhhh.

i feel so bad. like last wed, she gave me $20 when i went Sentosa.

then got work a bit then maybe can bring her go eat eat mah.

cannot treat the whole family lahh. $180 not enough. LOL.

plus i dont intend to spend all!

im gna spend a portion and then keep the rest because the "hole" in the bank really damn big.

hahahaha. siannnnnzxzx. but school will be starting in 3 weeks' time!

kinda excited! because im really determined to pull up my grades this time!

hehehe. and i hope & pray that i get into the CDS of my choice(which is business calculus)

because math is one of the subjects im good at! :))

and what im really afraid of is the module Photography!

once again like GDF, it's super subjective! arghhh.

but luckily for me, i've got A LOT of friends who loves photography.

so can ask them for help. hehehe! :)

oh and about the youtube group thingy.

i just posted my reply and attached a video. hehe.

just try only. cannot then cannot. :))

oh and mama quek's gna bring me to see the stupid eye doctor tmr. :(

stupid cause the last time i went, he squeezed all the frigging pus out of my eyelids.

both right and left eye and both upper and lower lids.

fmlllllllllllllllllllll!!! pain like CRAP!

the only reason why im not using the F word is because jie & jiefu, i know you guys are reading this.

hahaha. seriously damn pain!!! it's the worst kind of pain i've ever felt!

but i've also got a low threshold of pain.

BUT STILL!! damn bloody pain!

i was tearing throughout the entire process.

even after that, the tears kept rolling down uncontrollably.

and i was crying like CRAP. :(((((((

in my mind i was like "f f f f f f!!!!!!"

seriously! it's THAT pain.

and i've got a feeling he's gna squeeze tmr!! :((((((((((

i dont want leh. howhowhowhowhowhow?!?! zhenmeban!!!

im gna die lohhh! :(((((((((((

and when i googled the clinic because my mum wanted the number,

this was what i got: CLICK ME!

arghhh! jiumingjiumingjiuming! :(((

OH AND RIGHT!

there's this guy from my Freshman Orientation Camp(FOC) group, Ketsu, who talked to me on FB!

apparently he's also going for the competition. :/ hahaha!

weird lohhh! and super qiao! hahaha.

at least i found another singing kaki to talk to about such stuff! hehehe.

and another person to sing for me. LOL!

yes, i love making people sing for meeeee. hehehe.

okay lah. yeah i guess that's about it!

nothing much. byebye! nights! :)

PS. please ignore the irony when i said "nothing much to blog also actually." at the start of this blog and the length of this post. hahahahahahaha!

Night-dreaming

2010-09-29T04:18:00.001+08:00

hiiiiiiiiiii. arghh!
so much for adjusting my body clock back to normal!
i didnt sleep at all last night so i can adjust it back to per normal!
but i buey tahan and went to sleep at 6pm SHARP.
and woke up at 3pm SHARP. hahahaha.
super retarded. and now, im having my dinner. -.-
lololol. but it's pretty funny.
this is happening to me for the first time.
usually i can sleep all the way till the next day one loh.
at least i "demoted" from a pig. hahahaha!

so anyway! having picnic with my poly classmates later at SAND-tosa(geddit?)

cant waittttt. long time no see them liaooo.

but jowell & keith cant make it! or at least they can only join us after or later. :(

haha. oh and one of my friend, Jiayin tweeted

"Who believes dreams comes true?"

it got me thinking. and my initial response is,

"i used to. until i realise that people have dreams because some stuff cant happen in reality"
which is pretty much true(i guess)
many people have many dreams.
and these dreams are usually dreams that dont come true.
well for those you know that do come true, it's one of those kind of dreams where you get 4 numbers, you buy 4D, you win 1st prize, you get rich.
but usually it doesnt happen, right?

and there's the kind of dream that people always have, is the dream that people cant seem to fulfill in reality.
please do note the difference between the former dream and latter dream.
like i remember in my O lvl Literature textbook, it's called [The Glass Menagerie].

the guy's dream was to escape from his burden - his family.

and so because of his horrible life, he ended up living in his own dream.

which is very similar to this: for a man who cant live his dream, he can only look to dreaming about his dream in his dream.

this is a "better" rendition. there's another one which is negative.

it is when a man is too caught up in his dream that he becomes paranoid.

it can be when he had not-so-good dreams like maybe he got killed by a stranger

and probably the next day, he wakes up and sees that particular stranger and he thinks he's gna kill him.

so actually it's not really whether dreams do come true.

but what we choose to believe and what dreams actually bring to us and make us do.

it can be a form of relief to us, but at the same time, it can also bring pain to us.

yeap. i dont know if you guys get what im talking about.

just a little food for thought*.

dont mind me if i get into your head.

im just that kind of person who likes to look at things in a different way.

like that time my da jie & i went back to my jie fu's car.

then there's 2 logos on the car key right??

aiyoh. i think like that very confusing. okok nvm!

so if you see this picture, what do you press if you wna unlock a car?

i bet you chose the last button right?

it obviously means: UNLOCK.

because it's as if it's saying "PRESS ME TO UNLOCK"

but why cant that UNLOCK button mean LOCK because it can also say, "PRESS ME WHEN IT'S UNLOCKED"? :)

get me??

just hope that i wont end up as some manufacturer for car keys and gadgets.

*which reminds me that one of our projects for the photography module in sem 2 IS FOOD FOR THOUGHT.

well at least that was for last year's!

Childhood Pictures

2010-09-26T05:34:00.008+08:00

watch this space!

my next update: childhood pictures. :)

editted;;

hiiiiiiiiiiii!

so, now many of my friends are posting their own childhood pictures on facebook.

seriously got a lot! hahaha.

also, yesterday my dajie, jiefu & shaun were at our house and they were looking through our photo albums.

they were laughing at our ugly photos lohh. hahaha.

so yup! i looked through the albums today and decided to post some of them on!

hehehe. all got me lah, duh.

my blog is the only place where im entitled to be narcissistic without getting criticised for okay!

hahaha. i last time damn cute please!

i mean, now still cute lah. but last time cuter. hahahahahaha!

okok! let the pictures speak for themselves! :)

*BEWARE! PICTURE SPAM!(and i mean it!!)

I Love my Hairdo :)

My ah ma, sisters & I

My mum & I

Zao Geng~

1993

1993 - Lady Knox Geyser, Waiotapo(North Island, New Zealand)

1993 - Te Matua Ngahere(Kauri Tree) Waipoua Forest(North Island, New Zealand)

1993 - Whakarewarewa Thermal Reserve, Rotorna(North Island, New Zealand)

1994 - Daishoin Temple Backyard, Miyajima Island(Hiroshima, Japan)

Someone's birthday

Sab & I

Jordan, Sab & I

1994 - Hiroshima Castle(Hiroshima, Japan)

1994 - Mt. Titlis(Switzerland)

1995 - My rabbit & I!

1995 - Cub Enclosure, Lion Park(Johannesburg)

1995 - Kwena Crocodile Farm, Sun City(Johannesburg, South Africa)

1995 - Kangeroos at Zumstein, The Grampians(Victoria, Australia)

1995 - Koala Conservation Centre, Phillip Island(Victoria, Australia)

1995 - Aireys Inlet, Great Ocean Drive(Victoria, Australia)

At my uncle's house(London)

1996 - At home

1996 - At my neighbour's house

1996 - Batam

1996 - Daintree River Cruise(Queensland, Australia)

1996 - Great Barrier Reef(Queensland, Australia)

1996 - Great Barrier Reef(Queensland, Australia)

1996 - Madurodam(Amsterdam, Holland)

1996 - Souvenir Shop, Dam Square(Amsterdam, Holland)

1996 - Delft(Amsterdam, Holland)

1996 - The Marketplace, Cairns(Queensland, Australia)

1997 - Kindergarten - My Boyfriend & I(LOL)

1997 - Borobudur(Indonesia)

1997 - Monastery at Mendut Temple(Indonesia)

1997 - Telaga Pengilon(Mirror Lake), Dieng Plateau(Indonesia)

1998 - My 6th Birthday

1998 - My 6th Birthday

1999 - Eiffel Tower(Paris, France)

1999 - Triumphal Arche(Paris, France)

1999 - Miniature(France)

1999 - Catacombs at Denfert-Rochereau(Paris, France)

2000 - (Sky & Fierla)Flinders Chase Farm Hostel(Kangeroo Island, Australia)

2000 - Kangaroos(trail to Wangara lookout)(Kangaroo Island, Australia)

2000 - Camels(way to Leigh Creek)(Kangeroo Island, Australia)
2000 - Kangaroos(en route to Flinders Chase Farm Hostel)(Kangaroo Island, Australia)

2001 - Bullfight at Madrid(Spain)

2001 - Flamenco at El Carderal Cordoba(Spain)

My uncle's ROM

okay! no more pictures alreadyyyyy!
still have lah actually. but dont want lah.
all so ugly. hahahaha! the last picture already can die pleaseeee!!!
last time young that time so cute. then suddenly the face, dont know what happened.
hahahahaha! but i couldnt stop laughing when i saw all the pictures.
omg lah. i cant even remember half the places i went!
i started travelling when i was 1+ years old?!?! hahaha.
super spoilt lohh. :P

okay lah! shall go sleep now. goodnight! (:
sorry about the picture spam. hehehe.

New Blog Clothes

2010-09-26T00:48:00.004+08:00

``editted:

teehee. now i've editted the fb, twitter & lj links at the side! -->

nice rightttt! :)

i love my Adobe Fireworks skills. hehehe.

im still thinking if i should add a tagboard at the side and to make the banner on top a link to my blog.

should i should i?? lol.

but im still really upset about the colouring thing. :( oh well!

okay! shall go sleep now.byebye!

wheeee! i just changed my blog's clothes! hehehehe! :)))

okay byebye. lol.

Singing, not Sinking.

2010-09-25T16:51:00.001+08:00

good morninggggg!

okay i guess it isnt morning.

but that's what you say when you just wake up! :/

hahaha. well but to be exact, i woke up 40mins ago.

so not really JUST. hahaha.

anyway! checked my email today and received this email from yt!

Open Auditions for new YT Cpop Girl Band- "Cotton Candy"!!
OPEN auditions for Cpop (mandarine) Girl Band called "Cotton Candy"
The band will be covering a range of genres in mandarine so we need 4-5 girls (and there's the 2 of us)
with a range of different skills. If you are interested, please leave a comment on the audition video.

We look forward to hearin from you guys =)
OPEN Auditions-"Cotton Candy"- NEW CPOP GIRL GROUP/BAND
Cotton Candy is a new YT Cpop girl band, that will consist of 6-7 members in total depending on the response. We will be covering different genres of Cpop songs so we are looking for a diverse set of skills within the group members. If you are interested in auditioning, please fill in the form below and you will be considered. Auditions closing date is to be announced.

This channel will become the communication area for group members who will be listed.

We look forward to hearing from all of you ^_^

Username/Age:
Strengths: (rap, high range, etc)
Audition song: (a cover within the last 6 mths to show off your strengths)
Can meet due dates? (Y/N)
Fluent in Chinese? (Y/N)
Easy to catch online? (Y/N)

at first i was like, are you serious?!
but then after thinking again, seems like quite fun leh! hahaha.

can build up publicity for my yt toooo. which is awesome cause..

more publicity = more people viewing = more comments = me improving.

hahahahahaha. i sound like some marketing business person. hahaha!

but the thing is, i have no strengths lohhh! :/

or maybe im good at 真假音转换?? :/

i have no ideaaaaa! nvm! shall take my time and think first.

and this reminds me that, i havent paid for the singing competition yet!

howhow! i think i shall ask my mum about the London trip and the dates first!

bleagh. okay! shall go...i have no idea! watch some movies/shows! :))

Old Plain Black

2010-09-24T22:02:00.001+08:00

yes you should know what this post is gna be about.

RESULTS.

im dont wna be that kind of bitch who complains a lot even though he/she scored damn well.

First thing first, i dont think i did well.

to me, a good GPA is 3.0 and above.

and no, i didnt get that. so obviously i think i deserve a right to complain.

Secondly, im not ranting on twitter. instead i chose to complain on my blog here!

which means if you're totally uncomfortable with me talking about results.

please just skip this post or feel free to hop off from any point of this post. :)

Thirdly, actually there's no thirdly.

but it seems so incomplete without a thirdly.

so yeah. okay. get ready for my ranting!

so i woke up tday at 11am.

but no msg. :(

so i went on twitter and everyone was complaining about why results weren't out yet.

then i went to check student portal and when i went back to twitter.

one of my friend said she received a(or is it an?) sms already.

then immediately my phone vibrateddddd.

but the first thing which caught my eye was the D+ for GDF. :(

sian sia wlaoooo!

arghh. i dont think i deserve a D+?!?!?! like seriously, wth!!!

:( pull down my GPA by A LOT, please!

okay so i havent told you what my results are yet.

so here it is(according to the sms i received)..

Communications & Media Marketing: B+

Graphic Design Fundamental: D+

Essential Graphic Software: B

Journalism 1 News: B

Media & Society: B

APEL 1: Pass

and so which brings about a GPA of 2.74.

really really glad about all my results actually.

all EXCEPT GDF. arghh still very pissed can!!!

is like everyone did badly for that subject can?!

that's what i hate about Design modules.

it's so freaking subjective!!

how am i sure that this time round my design will be approved by you!

and i was actually hoping a GPA of 3.0?? but super glad that at least it's like..yeah.

siannnn! i wna retake GDF cannnn! :(

and if i retake and this time i dont do well again, i will really concede defeat.

jeeeeeez. okay im done ranting.

shall work harder for next sem.

am gna study like a dog loh. hahaha!

well anyway! shall enjoy myself until holidays are overrrr!

even though i dont think i quite deserve it because i ttly didnt work hard at all!(with no relations with my results! im so over that! i think..)

shall go play Gunbound with gerald now and then.. Sims! hehehehe! :))

may actually sleep early today too. keyword: MAY.

PS. lazy to colour the wordsssss. so have fun reading it in old plain black. :)

I think im Partly Spastic

2010-09-24T02:02:00.009+08:00

hiiiiiiiiiiiiii. brace yourself because this is a super long post!

it took me 1 hour to compose this, plus find all the links for you guys! :)

so im going on a date with my da jie & jie fu tmr.

it's to make up for the 4 year old promise they made to me!

hahaha! they said they wanted to bring me to pulau ubin cycle cycle.

but yeah. haha. so now they are making up for it! :))

so we're going to have lunch+movie/shopping tmr!

and they even told me to dress up a little!

but i have no idea where we're going exactly. hmm..

and i know you guys are reading this!

so, thank youuuuuuuu! :)))))

which reminds me that my mum promised to buy me a jigsaw puzzle when i was PRIMARY 6!

and up to now still no puzzle lohh!! :(

i love puzzleeeeessss! i love anything that requires a high degree of concentration, in fact.

EXCEPT THE FRIGGING RUBICS CUBE!

I HATE THAT!!! :(

i think people who can solve the cube in a few seconds are psycho.

im serious! that's like crazy lohhh!

hahaha. so if you're thinking of a birthday present for me, wait. what birthday?!

my birthday is in March! hahaha!

anyway! just get me a jigsaw puzzle. hehehehe. :))

hahaha. anyway! shall blog about my week!

met the TPJCians on monday!

was supposed to meet the Lianz before but..

well, if you actually read my previous post you would've known! hahaha.

but anyway! had a great time on monday!

super retarded! we went Pizza Hut to eattttt.

then then, Cleo told the person that it was Jian Nan's birthday

(if you saw my tweets you would've known, but anyway!)

and obviously it wasnt! hahaha.

Cleo texted all of us and told us what she was planning already

then they came over with a small slice of cake and a guitar.

and the guy with the guitar said "so, it's this boy's birthday today??" *points to jian nan*

then we all started laughing and jian nan was "IT'S MY BIRTHDAY?!?!"

hahaha! then anyway we sang him a birthday song.

sarah took a video with alina's bb! hope she will post the video & pictures up soon! :))

damn funny & retarded. haha.

and after that all of us got friendship bandssss!

sadly it's blue :( cleo, alina & i wanted the rainbow one!

but stupid sarah kept insisting on the blue. fine lohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. hahaha.

then we accompanied sarah to her ex's house to get her blue bear back!

he wasnt home lah. haha. but yeapppp!

then most of them had to leaveeee. so sarah, alina, nicholas, gareth and i went to T1 rooftop.

lepakedddd then we left for home!

gosh i miss those crazy kids! hahaha.

cant wait for prom and for their As to endddd!

well, for sarah's promos to end! hahaha!

oh and did i mention, i skipped the drinking session on wednesday! :(

my mum is really mad that i kept going out till the next morning! hahaha.

she was like "你明天不要跟我出去!" but before that i already not planning to go okay! :(

and i played Gunbound with Gerald just now!

but i kept dcing/hanging!

so we gave up! hahahaha. quite fun ah. reminds me of the game Worms

hehehe i miss that gameeee! well anyway!

i found a substitute of that game on facebook!

it's called Wild Ones

and anyway! i've registered for the competition liaoooozxzx.

but i havent paid yet! hahaha. shall think about it, think about it, think about it first.

i saw the past contestants' videos!

the featured video is the winner of the 2009 one!

he's really gooddddd. but the rest like all..so-so? :\

hahaha.

AND OH MY GOODNESS! IM LIKE LISTENING TO THIS GUY ON YOUTUBE NOW.

AND HIS DAMN GOOD. OH.MY.GODDDD!

he sang 最长的电影 by 周杰伦 and it's really good!! click on it click on it!

i think im in love. hahahaha!

wah shit man. he's really good. i cannot stop watching his videossss!

and i just requested him to do 黑色幽默. hehehe.

shall see if he replies! :)

okay anyway! saw this on Calyn's blog!

really nice! shall post it here, okay??

When she walks away from you mad - [Follow her]
When she stares at your lips - [Kiss her]
When she pushes you away or hits you - [Grab her and don’t let go]
When she starts cursing at you - [Kiss her and tell her you love her]
When she's quiet - [Ask her what’s wrong]
When she ignores you - [Give her your attention]
When she pulls away - [Pull her back]
When you see her at her worst - [Tell her she's beautiful]
When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word]
When you see her walking - [Sneak up and hug her waist from behind]
When shes scared - [Protect her]
When she lays her head on your shoulder - [Tilt her head up and kiss her]
When she steal's your favorite hat - [Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she teases you - [Tease her back and make her laugh]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [reassure her that everything is okay]
When she looks at you with doubt - [Back yourself up with the TRUTH]
When she says that she loves you - [she really does more than you could understand]
When she grabs at your hands - [Hold her's and play with her fingers]
When she bumps into you - [bump into her back and make her laugh]
When she tells you a secret - [keep it safe and untold]
When she looks at you in your eyes - [don’t look away until she does]
When she misses you - [SHES HURTING INSIDE]
When you break her heart - [the pain NEVER really goes away]
When she says its over - [she STILL wants you to be hers]
When she repost this bulletin - [she wants you to read it]

- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything
- NEVER call her hot! Pretty and beautiful is soo much better
- Say you love her more than she could ever love you
- Argue that she is the best girl ever
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don’t believe it, talk with her
- When she says she's sorry, she truly means it
- Because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Tease her and let her tease you back
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid
- Give her the world
- Let her wear your clothes
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
- Let her know she's important
- Kiss her in the pouring rain

AND I HAVE TO CLARIFY ONE POINT MENTIONED!!

THIS: When she repost this bulletin - [she wants you to read it]

EXCUSE ME. THAT'S NOT WHY REPOST THIS OKAY?!?! I SWEAR!!

IM REPOSTING THIS JUST CAUSE I THINK EVERY GIRL DESERVES TO BE TREATED LIKE THIS! :)

okay. yes. that's all. hahaha.

and NO, im not agitated or rushing to clear things up okay! and im not guilty.

hahahaha.

oh oh and and! im going London in October with my mummmm! :)))

we're planning to go on 8th-17th! 10 days!

but i just remembered..the auditions is on the 16th... zhen me ban?! :(((

i think im gna tell mum to move the date up to maybe 6th! hehehe good idea?? :)

anyway we havent booked yet!

but we have to! soon!

and and..im deciding on 假装 by 蔡依林. should i??

or 习惯 by 杨丞琳

:\ *shrugs* i dont know lehhh. howhowhow?!

someone tell me how!! hahaha.

and currently, im hooked on this 港男港女麻雀 mahjong iphone game!

hahaha im like super pro okayyyyy! i keep winning like siao.

*清一色 lehh!

MUAHAHA. :P

see i today so nice! provided so many links!

if you're wondering where the links are, those words BOLDED IN BLACK are the links!

hahahaha dummy!

okok. shall go sleep now! i hope i can! actually i dont think i can.

so i shant try. hmmmm. shall.... i have no idea. oh well.

okay byebye! :)))

PS. i have no idea why, but blogger is taking all my colours away!

as in, i added colours in my entries but then there's no colours!!

so for this post. i had to PERSONALLY put the colours up there okay!

imagine how i "coloured" the word rainbow?!?! huh?!?! hahaha.

so annoying pleaseeeeee! arghhh!!!!

fine nvm! shall go sleep now. BYE! :)

Pride

2010-09-22T21:42:00.000+08:00

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thanks for reading btw! ♥

2010-09-21T16:40:00.001+08:00

&sometimes MIA or AWOL seems like a great idea.

Im gna take these few days off.
See if i can actually survive without contacting anyone or what.
So, no handphone, no msn, no twitter, no facebook(except for my games), no blogging(except for my stories).
No anything.
It's like what jowell said:
"sometimes I would like to just disappear for a while. sit aside and watch how the world is without me. would there be any difference...?"

Haha yeapp. That's about it.
So yeah okay. Byebye.
Till then. :)

Sorry!

2010-09-20T14:08:00.001+08:00

Nooooo! I feel damn bad!
Cause the plan for today is to go T's hse then go meet the TPJC ppl.
Im supposed to be at T's hse at around 1 then meet the rest at 5.30.
But this morning alina msg me say meet at 4(cause the pizza hut deal ends at 5).
And i frigging snoozed my alarm for 1hr(11.24-12.50).
And im only ready to leave hse now.
But you see, i leave now, i'll only reach at 2+.
And i'll have to leave at 3+. which is..ya.
Damn. And earlier on T still asked if i was still going and i said yes.
Ahhh i know how damn disappointed she is in me. :(
And the thing is.. This isnt the first time i stood her up... :(
Sorry okayyyyy!! :((((
It's all my fault for having such poor time management and waking up late.
Sorrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! :(

Siansation.

2010-09-19T21:01:00.004+08:00

tofu with minced beef

wasabi prawns

tom yum soup

yakult from msia

nomnomnomnom! just came home from Imperial Treasure at Great World City with my sis, jiefu & shaun! :))

very fulllll! oh and i forgot to take pictures of the other dishes

(Sweet & Sour Pork, Kai Lan vegetables & my desert - some mua chee thingy). lolll. :\

too hungry so we just ate! hehehe.

had htht session with themmmm.

done with 90210 Season 2! :))

now im left with Pretty Little Liars!

and Charmed! hehehe :)

and may i add that my laptop memory is back to 105gb! hehehe.

happy happy! im not very sure how to play Sims 3 though.

and i still havent chosen a song for that Singing Competition

yeap! dieeeee. hahaha. i better do it quickkkk!

but im like also not sure if i wna join or what lehhh.

oh well! :(

and im meeting the JC kids for lunch/dinner tmr! :))

hehehe miss them like crazyyyy!!

wheeeee. okay lah i guess that's all. nothing much for now.

shall go watch my shows now. byebye :)

Not Up for Anything

2010-09-15T02:14:00.001+08:00

okay you know what? i have ttly no inspiration for my story today.

hahaha. crap! so much for updating everydayyyyy.

my brain juices are dried up! cant think and im sleepyyy!

oh well! i shall go sleep now and continue tmr!

sorry guyssss! :(

btw, the rest are going Rebel tmr.

should i gooooo? :\ it's likeeee.. i dont know lehhh.

not much in the mood to club. sian.

well to be exact, not in the mood for anything.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

but it's Ladies' Night. meaning, free entrance+5 free drinks.

plus David said drinks will be on him. *shrugs*

i dont think my mum will be happy if i tell her im going clubbing tmrrrr!

ahhhhs. *screams*

oh well. shall see how again tmr. :(

byebye for now!

Lust

2010-09-14T04:19:00.006+08:00

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thanks for reading btw! ♥

Singing Back to the Past

2010-09-13T15:37:00.002+08:00

yay! someone commented on my story already! hahaha.

but who i thatttttt?? plus, i have no idea if it's good or baddd.

oh well!

anyway! im like listening to my covers on youtube right now that i've done over the years.

i like how i've improved, learned and "grew".

i can still remember one of my biggest problem in the past was me being shy. :\

like really shy about singing.

my mum has never heard me sing before even when i decided to join campus superstar back in 2007. :\

well, not like im really "open" about it right now, but yeah. :\

at least i can sing in ktv in front of my friends right?!

haha. but im still quite shy about it cause i think it's like..my secret :\

lol. i dont know lehh.

i guess music is the only thing im good at? :\

well, but when i say im good at it, i dont mean im REALLY good.

it's just that it's my best, but it may not be the best compared to others.

another problem of mine was that i was singing with no feelings. or a soul.

but i think now, i've improved drastically?

hehehe. really really happy about that.

it was a really big problem and it took a long time for me to deal with it.

mainly because i was a happy girl!

how to have sad memories and feelings like this?! haha.

well, what i did eventually was to just think that im the person in the song,

then the feelings come to me automatically.

i think one of the songs which i translate the sadness the best is Jolin Tsai's Jia Zhuang

another problem was i was using ONLY my throat to sing. haha.

but i slowly ventured through my body. (okay..sounds wrong) haha.

and now i guess i know how to use my throat, stomach, head.

and there's also this problem right now, there's some songs which i used to be able to sing.

but now i cant! :(( really really sad!

like Vivian Hsu's Ai Xiao De Yan Jing.

do click on this song! it's really really nice!!! i fell in love with it just by hearing it once! hahaha.

i feel like doing re-covers. i already did for Tang Guan Zi.

here's the ORIGINAL one.

mind you, i wont post my covers here on my blogs anymore.

really really stupid thing to do..

hahaha. i just feel that the rest ought to expressed correctly again! :\

oh well!

and yeah. feels kinda weird talking about singing though. hehe.

but who careeeeeeees.

okok! better go off now! im meeting the gangz and im gna be late! :\

till tonight! byebye!

Greed

2010-09-13T00:39:00.009+08:00

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thanks for reading btw! ♥

7 Deadly Sins

2010-09-12T03:51:00.008+08:00

oh btw! i feel like writing my own stories again! hehe.
but this time im not gna write like long long stories.
just short compositions. :)
and there's gonna be a theme for every "series"

sooooo..the first series will be the 7 deadly sins!
hehe. and im gna start off first with Greed!
in fact, im gna try to remember what i wrote for my O levels english compo.
i did on this topic and i think i did quite well, cause apparently i've got an A2.
sooooo yup!
i'll try my best to remember what i wrote.
cause i really really think that piece of work was one of the best i did :)

well and to start it off! i shall just list the 7 deadly sins!

i dont think like, everyone knows righttttt?

i also dont think i can remember all 7 of them. haha.

so here it is!:

Lust
is an inordinate craving for the pleasures of the body.

Gluttony
is an inordinate desire to consume more than that which one requires.

Greed/Avarice/Covetousness
is the desire for material wealth or gain, ignoring the realm of the spiritual.

Sloth
is the avoidance of physical or spiritual work.

Wrath/Anger
is manifested in the individual who spurns love and opts instead for fury.

Envy
is the desire for others' traits, status, abilities, or situation.

Pride/Vanity
is excessive belief in one's own abilities, that interferes with the individual's recognition of the grace of God. It has been called the sin from which all others arise.

sooooo.. shall start tmr!

goodnight! :))

PS. shall post some pictures to get you guys* thinking and arouse your curiosity in the meantime!

hehe.

*im ignoring the fact that no one is reading this blog, okay! haha. well, except for maybe T! :))

No more Love Songs

2010-09-12T03:21:00.003+08:00

林隆璇 & 李聖傑-妳那麼愛他

你那麼愛她為甚麼不把她留下
為甚麼不說心裡話你深愛她

李聖傑-手放開

我給你
最後的疼愛是手放開

listening to these two songs right now.

the meaning is like, totally different.

the first is to carry on loving the person.

and the second is to let go and give up.

enjoy :)

Stupid

2010-09-11T16:05:00.000+08:00

hi. are you like dumb or dumb? up till now you cannot tell that i like you is it??

2010-09-09T19:04:00.001+08:00

End of exams! Yayyy.
But there's manymany thoughts running through my head right now..arghh!
I hope it's just because i dont have enough sleep!

Well anyway, medsoc today was suprisingly east. Haha.
Slping for just 4hrs was worth it! :))

I've been badly deprived of slp lately.
I mean i know i sleep everyday..and wayyyyy more than my classmates.
But im like really drained and exhausted..
Shall have a great rest this weekend! :))

Alright! Shall bathe, dinner, watch movies(to clear my laptop memory)!!
;))

GRR

2010-09-08T22:54:00.000+08:00

BOOHOO! i wanted to upload a Vlog.

but i have no idea why it's taking FOREVER!!

arghh so annoying loh please! pfft.

spoil my plans only! stupid FB also! :(((((

okay lah. yeah. just wna say this.

shall post my Vlog some other day. ARGHH.

pmopmopmo!!!

Photoshop

2010-09-08T02:05:00.000+08:00

BEFORE

AFTER

see my awesome skills!

how to not pass tmr, right?! hahaha.

okay lah. i shall go sleep now. byebye.

Love Songs on a CD

2010-09-08T00:38:00.010+08:00

Dear Person-Up-There,
I've went for almost all the lectures and tutorials for EssGra. Please bless me that the knowledge that I've gained is sufficient to let me breeze through my examination tomorrow. Thank You.♥

1 down 2 left!

THERE IS A HINT OF FREEDOM IN THE AIR.

CAN ANYONE SMELL IT?!?! :))

well actually, i dont really consider EssGra.

i didnt study anything at all.

im going into the examination hall with totally no knowledge of it.

oh gosh. hahaha. but i dont really give a damn.

*sighs* i hate this giving-up-even-before-trying attitude.

but what's worse it the knowing-that-you've-done-your-best-but-it-won't-change-a-thing situation.

i think im the only one who's not studying right now.... :(

im just an emo-momo now. haha.

i've promised that im going to be a happy jasmine on twitter!

so im not ranting on twitter.

dont wna bombard my friends and their timelines with my emo-ness.

oh wellllll... life goes on. sucks to be me.

well, on the upside..my BB cream just arrived today! hehehe.

and obviously i took picture of them(the powders too)!

*if you look carefully and you're smart enough,

that's Pretty Little Liars playing on my laptop! hehehe.

yumyum! shall use it tmr! :)) i wna look chio, okay?!

i swear the packaging is damn cute, i cant wait to use tmr!! hehehe.

better google on the directions of applications first. hehe.

okay lahh. shall go google and then..umm attempt to study..?

soooo..byebye and nights in advance! :))

BLEAGH

2010-09-06T03:29:00.001+08:00

study till this time, of course my entertain myself by camwhoring lahhh!

hahaha. so siannnn. im only at page 37 out of 45 pages.

so much for completing marketing and starting on essgra today.

boohoo!! nvm. tmr will chiong liao. confirm one.

cause exam on tues liao. hahaha!

nvm! shall start planning on my post exam activities already!

in short, it's PEA. hahahaha!

btw, i hate peas. *bleagh* hahaha.

btw, *bleagh* means PUKE. not acting cute. act cute is bleh. hahaha. GEDDIT?!

so anyway! here's my list! teeheeweehee. :)

SHOPPING
KTV
WORK
HOLIDAY
PARTY
CATCH UP WITH ALL MY FRIENDS
CHIONG MOVIES
CHIONG GAMES
LOSE WEIGHT
BRING MY DOG FOR MORE WALKS(okay lah. i added this to make a tenth)

hehehehe. yupyupyupyupyup.

cant wait lahhhh. zhen me ban! now cannot study cause too excited. hahaha.

YABADEEDOOOOO.

i would need a new clubbing kaki cause marcus neo having As. :(

sian lohhh. blahhhhhh. like that howwwww.

nvm. shall psycho sarah leong. hehehe.

but then her exams in october. sian lohh!

hownowbrowncow.thecowjumpedoverthe猫MAO(?!?!)

i just said that to make it rhyme. haha.

anyway, cows can jump meh?!

why they say the cow jumped over the moon?!

hmm. so weirdddd.

okay lah. im really going crazy liaooooo.

siao liao. hehehe. okok nightnight! ((:

Taking Chances

2010-09-05T23:02:00.004+08:00

okayyyy! so i havent studied anything today!

hahaha. i think cause yesterday i studied too much liao.

now become like that. :\

so you must be asking what i have been doing the entire day.

HAHA. i woke up at 1pm and turned on my laptop and started watching videos!

and i did a Taking Chances cover.

and and surprisingly, i was very comfortable with that song!

like, the high parts i werent shakey or what. i dont know howcome leh.

weirdddddd.

like other songs you sing already you will be very afraid that your voice may break at some point?

i mean, i was afraid that i couldnt hit the notes.

but when i managed to, what followed on was all natural and had good flow.

oh welllll. hehehe. happy!

but.. i dont dare to upload to my Y.

i dont wna get flameddddd!! other people's covers all so nice!

why would i dare to upload mine?!?!

sian ttm! but im happehhh!

cause i managed to hit the damn effing high notes in the song.

but managing to hit ≠ nice

hahaha. but still very tempted to upload it lehhh. hownowbrowncow. :(

*the high part which i managed to hit starts from 3min.

after the bridge part. hehehehe. happyhappyhappyttm!!! :)))

anyway, after that i watched the new chl 8 9pm drama on xinmsn.

not bad lahh. i think i will follow it. hehe.

and now im just playing my fb gamesssss and my taking chances cover on replay.

hahaha. i super faillll. ikr! :(

okay lah. shall jiayou and do my best! :)

Testing

2010-09-04T19:17:00.001+08:00

Yabadeedoo! I just downloaded this blog app for itouch.
Hope it's great! :))
So im waiting for stupid marcus neo to call me because he wants to cone my hse to swim.
But im like so effing tired+sleepy!! Fts!
Im gna be pissed off if he overslept!!
Im sooo going back to sleep if he havent call me at 11.30!

Oh damn. He just told me he's coming.
Sad ttm. There goes my sleep. D:
Oh well. :/

Can you please go awayyyyy?! Im already trying to alter my feelings for you and it's not easy. But you still have to intrude my dream! :(((( but i have to admit..the hugs were very real..and nice......... :(

Close to Self-Destruction

2010-09-01T19:37:00.000+08:00

not, not anymore.
i mean i sorta caught on the fact that you dont.
so to me it's like, what's the point.
i hate this kind of thing.
disappointed, of course i have to say.
but this will only make both parties feel even more painful.
anyway, i've never bugged you, have i?
i just want things to go back as per normal.
yeah..oh well.

anyway, im having gastric flu like, now?
or maybe it went away already.
but yeah. last night when i went to bed it was okay.
but in the middle of the night i kept waking up because of the acute pain in my tummy.
i had no diarrhoea or vomitting. but i really felt like it.
just that nothing came out.
so i woke up at like 9+?? like wtf. i slept at 4+ sia. -.-

i msged T and asked her what do i have to do if im sick and cant go for work.
she said to find a replacement. but like, no one was able to.
so i texted the EVM. then she said she would get back to me if i dont have to go down.
but if she didnt call, means i have to go down.
so thankfully, she called.
God aint that mean afterall. haha.
okay immediately after i said this, the pain is back. -.- wtfffff.

so..i only had a slice of bread today. arghh.
very lethargic. i think i shall go sleep again. oh well.
till then.

He Kissed My Lips, I Taste Your Mouth

2010-09-01T03:55:00.002+08:00

i really should be sleeping now!!

i have work tmr! 11 hours and 15minutes away from now! haha.

but i was planning to wake up early to study?!

oh well. so much for sleeping at 3am! :\

anyway! gotten my B.B. cream already!
i just ordered it from Gmarket.com.sg

using my mum's credit card. hehehe! so happyyyy!

hope it's really gooodddd! :))

this is how it looks like! :)

*pictures taken from the seller! :)

hehe looks really pretty and eye catching right? :))

well, the price was $15 and $1 shipping rate.

but i only paid $14 in total because i had $2 coupon. hehe. :)

oh well! yeap that's about it, i guess?

haha okay lah. shall go sleep now. and rely on my itouch tmr and notes to survive through work!

:)) byebye!

Why wont my Heart and Mind listen to me? :(

2010-08-31T02:29:00.004+08:00

okay! the dust have settled and things are alright now. :))
turns out that everything was a misunderstanding.
stupid MSN created one of the problems! boohoo!
well! but things are okay now! reallyreally glad+happy :)

sooooooo i havent been studying. :(
studying sucksssss mannnnzzzz!!
anyway! i have been looking for B.B. cream!
i really wna start using makeup because i wna be prettyyyyyy. hehehehe.
and i also wna get contactssss because i wna be prettyyyyyy.
see how low my self-confidence is!
i admit i do have a little inferiority complex.
there's no ENOUGH in my dictionary.
i wont think that im pretty ENOUGH, thin ENOUGH or good ENOUGH.
oh well. life sucks. and it sucks to be me.

well! but i guess i should be grateful and thankful that compared to other kids in other countries, or even, kids in Singapore who are have a poor family background.
because i do not have to worry how my day would be like everyday i open my eyes.
or whether i would have a place to stay, food to eat, water to drink.
for that, im very appreciative.
but humans will always be greedy and as i have said, there's no ENOUGH.
we wont be satisfied with just a dollar.
when we have $1, we want $10, when we have $10, we want $100 etc.
the list keeps going on and on..

i really wna do something to help. but at this point of my life, i have no power to.
so all i can do is to try to remember to go to the Care2 website and click the everyday clicks.
remember there was one post about it??
Here's the link to refresh your memory!: Online Petitions
yupyup! okay! i shall go sleep now!
have to be up at 9am because there's marketing lecture at 11am!
goodnight peopleee! :))

PS. wait shucks. i forgot what i wna say! :( arghh okay nvm. byebye!\

oh wait. i just remembered. i think i wna get B.B. cream, but i have no idea which to get!
please tell me if there's any good ones+cheap ones! :)) thanks!

TYVM

2010-08-28T00:36:00.003+08:00

im just gritting my teeth, willing myself not to cry.

fmlfmlfmlfml.

okay so now i realised that everyone HAS been talking about me.

thank you for shredding even the last bit of my dignity and courage which was the only thing i had left and what kept me going. tyvm.

oh and btw, thanks for telling me i dont even have the right to PMS anymore.

it sucks to type haha, lol or :) when you're crying, y'know?

Take it away, please..

2010-08-26T23:09:00.004+08:00

fuck lah. why must someone always go fuck my day up so badly.

it was already bad to begin with.

and you just had to make it worse.

and the truth is, i dont even know if they are talking about me.

i hate it when i read tweets that sound like they're talking about me,

but i have no idea if it's really me!! so mindfucking! :(

if it's just one single person, i would just be nasty.

but now when it sounds like everyone is talking about me, im gna crumble.

i hate being so paranoid, neurotic and oversensitive.

Eyes glistening with fear. Rolling down, a single tear.

i dont wna cry. not anymore.

but it's too hard for me to contain them anymore.

i feel like everyone hates me.

or that im the subject of their bitching session.

i cant stand it when someone hates me.

esp those that i care for dearly.

someone please come along and take it away..

hate is a tiring and never-ending battle.

Exams Are Coming! :(

2010-08-26T01:58:00.000+08:00

shall blog cause i have a teeny tiny bit of time to spare! :)

so..im gna be really really busy studying & earning $$ these 2 weeks!

which means i wont be updating so often already! :(

i shall write out my schedule here!

26/8 : Study

27/8, 28/8, 29/8 : Work & Study

30/8 : Study

31/8 : Go back to school for additional Marketing lecture

1/9 : Work

2/9 : Consultation for EssGra(optional)

3/9 : Go back to school for additional MedSoc lecture

4/9-6/9 : Study

7/9-9/9 : Study & EXAMS

then im free after that! :)))

now i shall write out my studying timetable!

MedSoc

26/8 : Print Media and Radio & TV

27/8 : News and PR & Advertising

28/8 : Effects and Global Mass Media

29/8 : Ethics & Laws and Revision and Past Exam Papers

Marketing

30/8-3/9 : Revision Lecture Slides and Past Exam Papers

EssGra

4/9 : Lecture 1, 2 & 3

5/9 : Lecture 4, 5 & 6

6/9 : Watch videos on Techniques

7/9 : Revision and Past Exam Papers

everyone is so skeptical of my plan!

but i will really strive to make them succeed!

i will show it to you guys! :))))

shall wake up before noon everyday and sleep early before 2am! :)

which is only a few more minutes before! hehe.

so i shall go get ready for bed!

GOODNIGHT! :))

till then!

Never Again, This I Swear

2010-08-21T14:41:00.001+08:00

this is one of those days i wished someone would say I Love You to me.

or even better, give me a bear hug.

that i could really use.

and i always thought that i had a lot of love to spare, a lot of smiles to share.

but i guess i was wrong.

just when i thought i was ready to leave my abyss, you pushed me back down deeper into it.

i would be emotional for 75% of the days and the days when i would be happy is 5%. and the remaining are when im just numb.

sometimes when i think life just got better, it just gets worse, tyvm.

wishes are all fake. 11:11 is fake.

im not gna pin anymore hopes on those stupid wishes anymore.

what's the point of wishing when they never do come true?

Sometimes when I hear my friends' stories, I'd feel guilty to fall in love.

Because if they don't deserve happiness, why should I?

&I supposed love never existed for you

So I guess it ought to end here..

Oh, but I forgot, we never even began..

&There was never a first step taken to begin with ;; we never got anywhere

I LOVE YOU! ♥

2010-08-19T21:24:00.001+08:00

EVERYBODY SEEMS SO DOWN AND SAD THESE FEW DAYS!

SO I SHALL BE SANTA FOR TONIGHT!

TODAY IS SELF-DECLARED "I LOVE YOU DAY"

SO DONT BE TAKEN ABACK IF I SAY I LOVE YOU TO YOU!

i figured out, everyone one of us needs some lovin' at every point.

so why not start saying "I LOVE YOU! ♥" to people you love! your family and your friends!

you'll be suprised at their replies!

i really understand what they mean by "Bringing Joy to Others is Bringing Joy to Yourself!"

:))

Drop more hints please, darling

2010-08-18T12:52:00.009+08:00

*sorry for being so narcissistic. ;pp

SHOULD I CUT MY FRINGE TO BANGS LIKE AGAIN??

or leave it like now?? haha.

i think now is quite okayyyy.

only that quite ugly when i dont tie my hair.

oh welllll! :(

anyway! school today was awesome! hahaha.

finally managed to borrow the MedSoc textbook! :))

haha. after that had dinner with Gerald & Yonghan at KFC.

we were all so broke. hahaha!

then we had a mini HTHT.

oh wellllllll. felt like kinda emo after that!

i dont know why!

everyone seems to have a secret! i want one too! haha!

oh ya! and i cant believe i actually said something!

cause YH said smth like all the people who are bi actually very goodlooking.

then i actually blurted out, ARE YOU BI?

LOL. FML!! hahaha.

omgomgomg. super paiseh after that!! hahaha.

okay lah. but after that we confessed that our first impressions of each other were cute.

HEHHHHH. HAHAHA. super funny.

only Gerald wasn't amused! hahaha!

teehee. okay that's all le!

meeting the other Lianz tmr! :))

we'll be going town! can dress up! hahaha!

shall wear my sexaye bandage skirt. LOL.

btw! im listening to Olivia Ong's You and Me.

really really nice!!

i really really love her voice!

but it got me thinking, a voice like hers can make her famous??

i mean her voice is sweet and all!

but i think she's the only artiste i know got popular because of her sweet voice.

the rest are like, cause they have powerful voices, or they are song composers too.

oh well! but at least she gives me hope!

because people said my voice is sweet(teehee)

but i dont think it's powerful. *sighs*

okay lah. shall watch Glee on chl 5 then watch Unriddle on Xinmsn.com then sleep! :))

shall sleep early! tmr will be a better day! (even though tday was nice :) )

Finding the Real Jasmine

2010-08-18T02:51:00.007+08:00

i realised something today.

you know, the exterior of me is a really really great disguise for the interior of me.

it sounds weird but, yeah. that's how it works for me.

i guess im the best liar, but i hate to lie.

i joke around, im liberal and im open-minded.

but deep down im really gullible.

it's funny for one to call him/herself gullible.

but the thing is, if someone lies, i wouldn't know it.

i would take it as the truth and well, the person will manage to get away with it.

there's a small kid in me which believes everything, doesnt want anything to change.

because she likes constance.

but she likes new experiences too.

because she knows everything will go back to normal.

i guess this is the reason why i hate people to lie to me.

because i will have no idea that it's fake and i will look like a fool.

but i guess sometimes i give myself away.

the signs my body give, the expression of my face etc.

and they are not some stuff which i can control.

oh well.

on a lighter note..i did a cover on Sha Gua(again)

but this time. i posted it on FB. haha! for that stupid YH lahh.

anywayanyway, did i mention im back on MapleStory??

well anyway, for those people who were my friends or were in the same guild as me, re-add me okay!

hehh. my IGN: xxxRegrets

im level 45 now! just leveled! hahaha. im a Warrior Fighter! :))

oh ya! and i scrolled my weapon just now!

i scrolled a 70% one which passed. then i scrolled another 70% one which failed.

and my item was destroyed.

so i scrolled another 70% on a new sword. and it failed again and was destroyed.

so i scrolled another 70% on a new one and it passed!

then a 60% one on it which passed!

:)) so happy! hahaha. but im broke now. :\ oh well oh well!

hehhh. hope to Ludi PQ soon!

hmms. going back to school tmr! hopefully this time round, we'll be able to get to the books!

haha!and we have a Lianz lunch on Thursday! cant wait!

miss those 6 other kids like crazy! hahaha.

oh ya oh ya. as promised, i shall post my other designs online now! :))

My very first assignment which Randi helped me with! :))

it's supposed to be a factsheet for my course for those Secondary noobs when they come to TP for openhouse. haha.

page 1

page 2

This is my NDP poster! hahaha. oh well.

my teacher said it looked like some Vietnamese or Communist flag. -.-

wtf?!?!

and this! you guys have already seen! :))

okay! that's all! byebye! :)))

maybe i should've fell in love with someone else who loves and cares for me.

Note to self: Find someone who loves me more than I love him.

Happy Birthday, Singapore!

2010-08-10T06:04:00.005+08:00

just read Calyn's blog. boohoo.

make me feel emo only! :(

she's soooo happy with her bf!

don't get me wrong! it's something worth being happy about.

and i AM happy for her. but it makes me sad and think what about those who are single! :(

why are some happiness only built on love?

is that kind of happiness only attainable through love?

then what about the heartache and sadness that people suffer because of love?

arghh. it's killing me. right now only T knows what's going on.

oh welllllllllllllll! according to Mandy, LIFE GOES ON! :\

haha. no worries i wont die from it! :)

well, contemplating on changing blogskin. something simple. like really simple.

x--------------------------------------moments later--------------------------------------x

okay! just did. LOL.

to be honest, i dont remember if i created this skin or it was somebody else's.

i was quite certain it was someone else's.

but when i looked through the template, i realised the words "i'm confused" is under my photobucket. LOL. so i have absolutely no idea! :\

sorry to the person who created this(if that was the case)

not that im ripping off your work or that im not giving you any credit, but i have no idea!! :\

OH YEAH BEFORE I FORGET!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE!

i have no effing idea how old Singapore is. so i shall just leave that (4x)th out! :)

caught NDP 2010 with my mum this evening! i keep thinking it's 2011 already! :\

hahaha! cant wait for 2012 btw. im serious! im already looking forward to it.

and im not making any plans or looking at the years after 2012!

i feel like it's as though 2012 is really gna happen.

well, i really think it is! :\

im not pessimistic or what. but.. oh well. okay lah maybe i am. hahaha!

crapping again tday!

after NDP 2010 was One Moment of Glory(OMG)

YAYY I SAW MYSELF ON TV! with the rest of the clique. HAHA!

retarded or what. actually my face was covered by my hand lah. but ya. who cares~ lalala~ :)

the David Lin guy so cute lohhhh. hahaha!

oops. better not say this in front of my "bf". later he jealous. HAHAHA!

just now i said "got the very cute guy who plays guitar & sing"

then he said "HEY. cannot say he cute."

HAHA. aww. cute or what? LOL.

yeah i know many of you keep saying im attached and all, here's the catch, "I'M NOT"

hahahaha! actually i havent been 100% honest with you guys before this.

you guys kept saying "your boyfriend"

and all i did was to reply "ya my boyfriend. HAHAHAHA."

but i put a HAHAHAHA so big behind, y'all cannot smell anything fishy one meh?!

so not my fault if you didn't catch the joke :\ HAHA!

but the thing about this joke is that, we're playing it till like..kinda serious?!

i have no idea where's it gna lead to. :\

aiyah since no one's gna read my dead dead blog, it's sorta safe(?) to be honest.

im really really afraid of like.. getting stuck in this game. :\

actually.. i may actually be sucked into it already. ahhhh shucks.

and i have no idea how to deal/solve it. boohooooo.

okay lah. yeah that's all for my confession.

the rest T knows. teehee.

so anyway! have been back on Maplestory! hahaha!

DONT JUDGE ME, OKAY?!

it's just that i have a sad sad life! or maybe, no life! lolll.

but yeah.. oh well! *shrugs*

alright! look at the time! i guess i should be sleeping already!

nothing much to do.. oh yeah i wna say! have been following up on Kpop recently.

THANKS TO JOWELL LAH! hahaha!

actually not much lah. just watching SHINee's Hello Baby.

really really cute. haha. should go watch it if you haven't done so! :))

I LIKE ONEW! hehhh. he quite cute leh!

he's not the cute people who define as.

but he's cute in his own way. when he smile he has practically no eyes. HAHA!

OH BTW, DID I MENTION

THIS IS THE START OF MY 3 MONTHS BREAK? :)))))

*GRINS*

im having break until *counts counts counts* October 25th! :)))))

but i have exams in Sept lah! hahaha.

7th-9th Sept! i really really hope i will pass! so i wont have to retake the Supplementary paper.

hahaha. i'm gna study hard okay! i swear i swear i swear!! :))

and i'd have to go back school this wednesday for makeup lesson on Graphic Design Fundamentals(GDF).

it's about art lah basically. yeahhh. oh well oh well!

since im here, i shall post up my design!! :))

so our assignment was to create a giveaway for our Open House next year!

we get to choose what we want to give as.

the choices were: bookmarks, buttons, post-its, stickers & rubber stamps.

so being the lazy little Jasmine, i chose bookmark!

which was the easiest when researching on the pricing and all!

yupyup! :)) cool right?! ikr! :)

okay lah! super long post this one!

next time i shall post about all my other assignments! and hao lian abit of my grades. HEH! :))

till then! goodnight!

PS. today(or maybe some of you prefer it to be "yesterday" since it's already past midnight) being National Day, makes me wna do a cover on Kit Chen's Home. teeeheeee. and as previously mentioned, no one reads this dead dead blog, i can mention bout my Youtube. haha. and i MAY post it there, well if i DO actually record it. :\

&i think lovers always start from friends, right?

Awkward

2010-07-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

im feeling kinda sad about the stuff that's going on in school/class now.

i dont know if anyone has noticed it, or is it just me, but the atmosphere is..awkward.

we're a clique, but not a clique. and definitely not everyone of us "clicks".

it's really weird if you group some of us together because we have nothing in common.

we all choose who we wna hang out tgt and stick to already.

but what brings us tgt is some people who are like the glue.

i have no idea how to explain it.

im sick of people becoming so fake.

im not saying that im sooooo real and 100% genuine.

but at least i try to steer clear and well, "avoid"?

i'd rather be a loner than to hang out with people i dont feel comfortable with.

oh geez. this whole thing is so heavy and dark.

or maybe it's just that im pmsing this entire week.

i hope it's that. or just that im over-sensitive.

*shrugs*

The Black Sheep Escaped

2010-07-26T22:20:00.001+08:00

and that's what i do when im boredddddd! hehhh.

i feel like moving back to lj. :\

dont ask me why! i have no idea! hahaha.

but i dont think i will lahhhhh. very lazy to blog these few dayssssss.

hehh. soooo. yeah oh well. okay bye. hahaha!

Online Petitions

2010-07-24T20:45:00.008+08:00

did anyone know that today is Worldwide Animal Freedom Day?
im sure no one knows.
well, it is!
so just for today, please..

Refrain from eating meat, poultry, fish/seafood, milk, eggs or animal by-products.
Do not hunt or fish.
Do not wear clothing made from animals.
Consider adopting a homeless animal.
Refrain from using products that were tested on animals.
Boycott entertainment that uses live animals.

yupp! it's taken from a web called care2.com
click here for the article
and, click here for the official website of Worldwide Animal Freedom Day

well some of you may know, actually i dont think anyone except for Jowell, that im signing petitions online.
and im really happy that some of those that i signed were successful! :))
go ahead and do your part! it's 100% free!
you just have to create an account(free!) and then click on sign petition. :))
click here for the official website of Care2

also, you can learn about a lot of other stuff on there.
that's where i got my knowledge of the Worldwide Animal Freedom Day.
sooo..yup! i know it's kinda late to actually tell people it's Worldwide Animal Freedom Day.
but, oh well! glad that i havent eaten meat today! haha.
i think i wna make this into a monthly thing! i shall go vegan every 24th July 2010. :))
it's difficult to go vegan completely.
so i shall do the monthly one for now! :))
i know even though im just a solitary individual, but it makes me feel good that im trying to do something and may be even contributing to something good.
sooo.. yupp! haha.

okok! i guess that's all? :))
nothing much to talk about life nowadays.
like..lots of projects & assignments due now.
because there's only 2 weeks of school left!!
can you believe it?? it's super fast!
then im gna have a 3 months break with 2 weeks of exam in the middle.
i love it!! :)) no sarcasm here, alright?
but im not really stressed out because my goup was really consistent and we completed 2 projects.
and the next few projects are due next next week. :))
im not doing anything now and have time to spareeeeee!
it's like cause i dont have the programmes to do the work for GDF(Graphic Design Fundamentals) and EssGraph(Essential Graphic Design).
and our teacher hasnt returned us our proposal for MedSoc (Media & Society)
so basically, i have nothing to do!
well, i know i should be studying.
but my exams are only on the 7th, 8th & 9th of September.
so you cant really blame me for procrastinating lohhhh. haha.

haha. oh oh. i re-dyed my hair last night!
i used Liese Bubble Hair Dye. colour is Cassis Berry.

it's supposed to turn out red/pink. but it's just brown for me! :(

sad lahhh. but the end result is still nice lahhh. hahaha.
and my hair now's not dry or frizzy lehhh.
so.. yeahh. very fun to dye my hair too. haha.

yupyup. ok i guess that's all for now.
byebye! :))

BAD online shopping experience

2010-07-10T00:54:00.017+08:00

omg im like damn pissed!
had a very bad online shopping experience with this seller.
but i shall not mention her name. yet.

okay so here's the story.

ITEM purchased(or maybe supposedly): black bandage skirt

TIMELINE:

18/5
i asked about the price and all.
we struck a deal and i made immediate payments.

21/5
Seller: Thanks will mail out asap!

24/5
Me: hi have you mailed it out? it's already been a week already and i havent gotten my skirt. please reply! thanks! :)

26/5
M: please reply. tyvm.

S: Hi dear! Have not mailed it out yet! Due to some problem with the bandage skirt there's a few threads coming out so im getting a new one for you instead :)

28/5
M: alright. i'll appreciate it if you mail it out soon. please do notify me when you have. thanks!

4/6
M: it has been a REALLY REALLY REALLY long time already.if i dont receive my purchase next week, i would like a full refund please.thank you.

(no reply. got really pissed so i wrote a negative comment on her LJ)

11/6
M: Hi. i would like a full refund of $12 please.POSB savings 244-38540-0. please inform me when you have done so. thank you.

S: Hi dear, I've mailed you girls who ordered the bandage skirt about the restocking stuff that black have run out of stocks, 2 of my girls are okay with it, im sorry the bandage skirt couldn’t come within the week you wanted it to come, if you don’t mind I will throw in free accessories as an aplogy with the bandage skirt when it arrive.. The person said she'll call me when they arrive. but I'll call the store up later to see if the skirts are ready for collection, because its not opened yet at this timing. I really hope you understand my situation..

S: Do let me know because I really don’t want to any misunderstanding between us thanks!

M: alright. because i got really angry when i haven't received it and i didn't get any reply. please inform me again when you have sent it. thank you. :)

S: thanks thanks so much for your understanding!! I'll inform you again

(so i decided to give her the benefit of the doubt and delete the comment on her LJ)

1/7
M: is my skirt here yet? it's more than a month already.

2/7
S: Hi im afraid that the package I packed was too small or something because its weird why the other girl who bought the skirt didn’t receive it as well. oh my god im so afraid now I might be refunding half the amount if you don’t mind or send another skirt which is of another colour If its ok with you!

3/7
M: im sorry but i would like a full refund.

M: Hi. i would like a full refund of $12 please.
POSB savings 244-38540-0
please inform me when you have done so.
thank you

S: alright im so sorry! I'll refund you asap!

8/7
M: have you transferred the money over?

(no reply so i decided to leave a negative comment on her LJ. only then did she reply.)

10/7
S: Hi, regarding the refund, I've told you I'll transfer the money over asap, im not telling you that im not refunding at all or half right? The nets card is not mine and its very difficult for my to transfer the money over unless my friend can lend me her card, I hope you can be more patient by giving me until next week to get my own posb card and transfer the fund over to you.

M: i've prompted you so many times but you didnt reply me.
i have already been very patient. the entire deal took almost 2 months.
i really hope that you will stick to your word and refund me by next week.
tyvm.

okay so wtf. it's obviously my fault. it's not like im damn impatient.
i mean like, fine. you dont reply me within 2 days, i get fed up.
as long as you give me a DATE, i will just wait.
hello? the entire incident took place from 18/5-10/7.
that's like almost 2 fucking months?!
for those of you who had shopped online before knows how it works.
usually the stuff that you order get sent to you within a week.
and if it's more than a week, they would explain and give you a valid reason.
okay so she gave me her reason, and i decided to give her the benefit of the doubt and give her another chance.
so i waited again.
but i waited for another week and nothing happened.
no emails or whatsoever.
so i emailed her. after 2 days, she didnt reply so i sent another one prompting her.
but after the 2nd email, she still hasnt replied.
i hate it when people dont reply messages.
i mean, hello? very difficult is it?? and it's not as if mine dont require replies.
mine were like questions?!
before the payment, her replies were very prompt and immediate.
but after that i had to wait for her replies.
but okay, forget about it.
after that i had to ask her twice and write a negative comment on her LJ then did she reply.
what kind of impression does she wish that i get??
obviously what conveyed to me was that she's being dishonest and maybe even a scammer?
pissed ttm.

asS

2010-06-26T22:27:00.000+08:00

You don't fucking hurl vulgarities at a girl and then act like it's all okay the next day and tell her it's up to her to forgive you. You then create a false accusation as your reason to curse at her and now you try to be back in the game.

I'll gladly pray to god every night to make sure he punishes you as you deserve it and go through the hurt and pain she went through.

You are such a fucked up asS and probably with some fucked up issues.

Just don't mess with my girlfriends.

If not we'll probably take pictures of us flipping you the bird. :)

&as i said, love aint for everyone

2010-06-15T22:03:00.002+08:00

okay time to rant.

so yeah went out tday. and met C & JK after that.

apparently C wasnt really like, supportive and JK wasnt really comfortable.

C kept saying and saying that he reminded her of K. like, wtf???

K is like..gosh. ancient lah! and i got quite pissed when she kept saying that.

cause i guess, the animosity is damn strong.

well okay lah. the word itself is very strong. so..yeah.

i dont know lah. she said he was like, arrogant/proud?

i admit kinda. like, i felt that too lah. but i kinda brushed it aside.

but then C kept mentioning about K and i got really fed up.

so now it has sort of clouded my judgement.

oh well. i dont know lah. arghhh! FML.

but to be honest, i dont think it will really work out.

like..lots of stuff lah. i guess we're too different??

we're not each others' type.

i think i know what we are.

we're that kind of people who you meet along the way when you're still looking for love.

but you know that it wont turn out to be something which brings you to the end.

we wont be walking with each other till the end of our lives.

i guess that's life.

besides, i cant fall in love. cause i dont know what love is.

it's supposed to bring you happiness and bliss.

like, you dont care about anything else except it.

i've never felt that way towards anyone before.

i cant be tied down. i hate that feeling.

i hate it when someone gets clingy and asks, where are you? with who? why?

all those questions! it gets to me!!

and to be honest, most of the time why my r/s fail, it's cause of this.

or the fact that, im not in love.

im not gna apologise for the way i am.

i have already, many times actually.

but i guess some people are just not meant to love, or to be loved.

and some people really do stay single all their life.

but of course there will be flings lah.

oh well. i have no idea what life has in store for me.

but i can clearly say that, i love singlehood more.

i cant stand being tied down and controlled.

&as i said, love aint for everyone.